lifeinreverse

life

2009-04-30T15:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I would rather remain nonchalant about things that utterly irritates me. I'm trying my best to control my disgust and anger. Why must I always be the one giving in, why can't that person reflect on her/his own actions. That sums up, though I'm not in any position to label but he/she sucks.

Nothing is wrong between Baby and I.
Its just. . .

SIGH

Busy Bee

2009-03-28T01:50:00.003+08:00

Busy with packing.
Busy with cleaning.
Tired out!

Can't wait!

All this while, I used to think.
Family wasn't all that important.
Life was so meaningless.
But, at this point of my life.
I really cherished every single person who is so dear to me.
MY Baby,My Parents,Siblings(A,M,P&S), Dearest Cousin (Val) & my bestest friends in life.
Don't want to waste a single moment to regret.
Seriously, miss them all so much.
You will only miss them when you are away from them.
All the while if you were with them, you would have taken them for granted.

I'm blessed with a wonderful family of mine.
Even though its broken but still good.
Along the way, built close relationships that no one can come asunder.
<3

2009-03-26T13:08:00.002+08:00

Baby in basket! Doing my laundry babe?

Camwhore my dearest! lol

As happy as always~!

Just some random pictures.
Hate to be maligned, hate to being used as an excuse.
Some parent just have to push the blame onto others as they have no other defences.
How childish can they be.
Well, they brought it on themselves though.
Damn.

BLAH

2009-03-17T17:00:00.003+08:00

Celebrated MIL's birthday on Sunday.
Nothing much, went to town.
Shopped at Centrepoint,Robinson's, HMV than settled down for lunch at Food Republic.
How I hate crowded places!
Than, they proceed on to suntec for the IT fair while BF and I head Home.
Heard that you didn't even need direction or effort to walk in.
Those people will just push you into the convention hall!
So glad that I didn't go.
When I see many many people I get so irritated and have headaches.

Had a tiff with BF over some trival matter.
But in the end we are still cool. <3
Yeap, looking forward to going Vic's place tomorrow.
:D:D

School's officially OUT

2009-03-11T00:28:00.002+08:00

End of exams and Good Bye to ITE.
But of course I Hope that there wouldn't be any last good bye to any of my close friends.

My schedule is packed with lots of stuffs to or needs to be done.
However, Education wise I really have no idea where I will be heading to.
Nevertheless, I will be earning money and saving up to.

Alright, the start of a new chapter with a newly done blogskin. (:

Dead blog.

2009-02-09T23:52:00.004+08:00

My blog is declared DEAD!
It is so so rare that I would ever update my blog which I left for months.
Anyways, project's deadlines were all due one after another.
Followed by the CA that was just taken today.
Barely had time to relax.
With another 2 presentations still due.
School is officially coming to an end soon.

Just this afternoon, bell and gang were wondering if we would still keep in touch in future.
I ponder back to my primary and secondary school days, come to think of it.
I really suck at keeping in touch with people. Most of my primary school friends through msn ONLY. Some close secondary school friends through MSN TOO. So, I guess its the technology too advanced? So no, I guess I didn't try to make the effort for it.

However, being in ITE really taught me lots of things. I made wonderful friends when I was at the lowest point of my life. We went through so much together, through the eyes of the outsiders who thinks that we can never ever make the mark. Having good friends like BELL,VIC, WANNI, LYN who really understand and share the burden with me. I am really thankful for you girls.

Doubt you all will be reading this, but nevertheless I LOVE YOU GIRLS! :)

On the other hand, I am clueless of what course I should choose for poly. I really hope that I can make the right decision. And, pray hard that I will be able to study poly even though I know that its going to be a tough road down. (you girls should know why) Yeap, wish me luck.

I shall end here since its 12 midnight and my hubby is already sound asleep.
Love you too dear.

Nights people.

Catching up

2008-12-11T16:28:00.002+08:00

Courtesy of praizel that I am doing this.

RULES: Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear -person who tagged you-,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .
___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December -When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drinks - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Dear Praizel,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you . I think I realized First of May In your camping car and I saw you Carve your initials into My best friend. I'm sure you're Frostbitten enough to understand That I'm open . I'm returning Your Ring to you, but I'll keep Your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember Our friendship.
-Samantha-

HAHA Done.

Okay back to myself.
I am so happy that I managed to catch with my long lost BFF.
Met each other and talk a lot of the past and stuff.
Miss her lots.
<3

School holidays are coming.
Going to school for short lessons are a waste of time.
But, no choice. For attendance sake I have to.

I could have slap myself today for smirking when huidtin was complaining.
ARGGH..
I actually wanted to laugh out loud. But don't wanna be so bad.
Accumulated lots of karma points already.
:(

Now, I have the freedom to do things the way I want.
I am contented with the way my life is now.

To Annabelle, Sorry will catch up real soon.Message me!
Praizel, yup catch up soon too. ((:

SUPRISED

2008-12-02T20:31:00.003+08:00

Isn't she such a dear.

GOD!
I have left this blog dead.
I scared Wanni with this template of mine.
Thinking that I actually closed down my blog.

Boy,I am so weak nowsadays.
I need to strenghten up man.
...................................................

Anyways just testing to see if anyone still reads my blog.
Nah I am just being high because just finish my resume and application letter that I owe teacher. And, my boy and good friend's birthday is coming up tomorrow. Happy Happy Happy BIRTHDAY.

Sigh so much has changed, some good and some bad.
I miss you girls.
Take good care of yourselves yeah.

GTG!
ciao

fruitful week?

2008-09-28T13:55:00.003+08:00

WORK WORK & WORK was what I've been busy with.
But, I'm so happy this holidays baby is accompanying me.
which means more money coming in.
(:

I'm a happy girl.
<3

:D

2008-09-19T22:29:00.002+08:00

I feel so blissful when my baby is with me.
Be it with or without your presence.
I know you are always there for me.

Thinking back, the past were all so silly.
I thought people could be trusted, yes gullible I know.
After time passes, the truth just reveals one's true self.
It opens the truth about one's ugly doings.
Why or how could anyone do that?
I guess the person doing would have the answer.

Now, all I care in the world.
Is to earn lots of money to start my own life with my baby.
I'm looking forward to good and bad things to face and overcome together with you.
You are the perfect one for me.
Don't doubt yourself.
LOVE.

P.S
Enjoying every single moment with you. <3

Lacking?

2008-09-14T12:27:00.002+08:00

1st week into the holidays.
Time flies so FAST.

Precious time spent with my love.
My love was angry with me about my previous post.
Saying I totally neglected him and refuse to talk to me for 3 hours.
But, I threatened him by saying if he still refuse to talk to me.
I wouldn't be studying well.
Than, he gave in (:

Everything went smoothly, Baby's laptop was sent for servicing.
Think will only get it back this tuesday.
Hopefully <3

So yesterday my day spent was short because baby went to his friend's Birthday party over at ECP. Didn't want to follow as it would be so awkward with all guys there.(I believe :P ) So, left to rot myself away at home for the night.

Watch TV programs, which I haven't been doing in a long long time. Caught the show "So, you think you can dance", which was not too bad. Felt bored after a while so I decided to solve the messed up rubix cube that was left on my shelf to rot. And, spent 3 whole hours solving it. Always the last layer thats the hardest. But, nevertheless by 11pm everything was solved. The satisfaction just felt SO good (:

Right now I am waiting for baby to wake up and talk to me on the phone.
In the meantime, I am going to play Jam portable on psp which is insanely addictive.

I Love you, Aung Soe Min.
Deeply love and cherish by me.
Stop having silly thoughts.
Everything will be A-L-R-I-G-H-T.
And, congrats on your improvement in results.
Both you and I know how much effort was put in.
Sorry, if I didn't look as if I care.
I do.
And will always do.
LOVE.

No mood!

2008-09-06T20:10:00.003+08:00

I am so not in the mood to study.
I don't know if its the distractions around or is it just me.
I really need to do some serious studying.

Oh yes! My sister is buying me a Sweetilicious Lipbalm.
For more info go to LOVEOFLABELS
and check it out.

Spent this week trying to memorise info on MICE.
Not getting anything in. . .
And, I finally sent my phone for servicing.
And Hooray I no longer have a cracked keypad for now.
But, stupid me forgotten to repair something else. T.T

Alright, I need to go already.
Study well PEOPLE.
:D

yippee.

2008-08-29T22:40:00.003+08:00

I'm blogging!

What is so amazing about me blogging right?!
Actually NOTHING.
Anyways I have my baby's lappy over at my place for the night.
BECAUSE. . .
My baby is out with his friends for the night.
So he allowed me to bring home his precious.
With a condition of course. :P

Anyways, skip school today.
Teacher's day celebration which I wasn't interested in at all.
I woke up late than I went to meet my baby.
Slack at his house the whole day.
:D
Sweet, I haven't been meeting him the past few days.
So I am just so delighted to see him.(:

I'm currently playing this gameSushi-go-round.

[:
Bye for now people.
I hope I will be back to update more.

I just love rainy days.

2008-08-22T09:48:00.002+08:00

I am always so reluctant to go school these days.
But, don't have much a choice if I want to sit for my exams.
We are rushing 2 projects.
Both due next week.

Now I'm just being bored, kind of lazy to prepare for school.
:(
Maybe I won't be going.......

My darling is having exams right now.
><
Sigh

:D

2008-07-23T20:18:00.002+08:00

Its been 15 months that darling and I have been together!
And still counting of course (:

I love you Aung Soe Min!
I just want to say thanks for always being there for me when I'm down.
I am sorry that I wasn't patient with you sometimes,
but you still forgave me.
I do love my baby.
Muacks.

I still feel the sweetness of your love.
<3

IRONY

2008-07-15T19:23:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL IS BORING!
WASTED YET ANOTHER DAY.
I JUST CAN'T STAND SOMEONE.
SO CONTRADICTING.
WHEN WILL IT BE THAT YOU WILL STOP BEING A TWO FACED PERSON.

Miserable

2008-07-14T20:19:00.002+08:00

Starting a relationship is easy.
Maintaining it, is the challenge.
How about blood relations?
A nasty quarrel that creates a hidden barrier between 2 sisters.
Sometimes it takes a simple apology to smoothen the tension.
However, Easier said than done.

A day at school.
Down with an annoying flu.
Dizzy and Drowsy most of the time.
But my HERO came in time.
:)

Loves my baby boo.

1st day of school -.-

2008-07-07T20:40:00.002+08:00

When the alarm rang this morning at 6.25am.
I was so reluctant to wake up.
I was arguing with my lazy self to get up for school.
In the end, I woke up for S&W.

S&w was so 'nice'.
Just 4 of us in attire.
So we played badminton.
Now I have a aching muscle.
-.-

Everything else was as usual.
AND, the money from the competition is already with Mrs tan.
$.$
money money coming.
HAHAHA

Anyways its nice meeting everyone after the 3weeks short break.
:D

I'm yet to think of one.

2008-06-14T18:28:00.002+08:00

3 weeks of holiday!!!
Come to think of it.
Its actually so SHORT.
I am jam packed with lots of activities.
^^

Alright.
I wonder who actually reads my blog though.
:D

FRIDAY 13.06.08
Lets start with yesterday.
Lesson was 'cancelled'.
So we had an extra day to ourselves before the actual holiday started.
And, as usual I went over to meet baby in the morning.
I bought breakfast over to his house.
Than around 12 we were suppose to head to TP central for lunch.
BUT!!!
We had to accompany mom to look for his dad at long beach restaurant@dempsey road.
I hate that place.
No where to go.
So we the 4 of us were left stranded at the bus stop for 2 hours and 45 mins doing nothing under the hot sun.
How nice was that.
By the time we ate our lunch was 3.45pm.
I think I was too tired from the whole 'outing'.
That once I had a bath at baby's place.
I doze off till 8.30.
=X
That was my friday.

SATURDAY
Didn't do much.
Just slack around.
I just can't wait for the 18th where we are going to watch the show GET SMART.
Thats before baby's school reopens.
^^

I think I'm under the influence of my sisters already.
I'm currently addicted to Vampire Knight anime.
And, Ultra maniac manga..
^^

HAPPY.

2008-06-03T22:04:00.001+08:00

Yet, another case of young bunch of "hooligans"
Pest of the society.
I am not labeling, its proved by their own words and actions.

Well, I can't help but wonder really wonder.
People take control of their own lives.
They choose who and what kind of person they want to be.
If they said parents are what made them become like that.
It may only be a minor part or just plain excuse.
Most of it lies in themselves.
Which path they want to take, they chose for themselves.
Being rebellious, proving to others that they are daring and notorious.
It's only a outer shield to gain acceptance into their society/community.
Whatever they call it.

Selling "Ice-cream", making a nuisance or a folly out of themselves in front of other's house.
Only invite trouble to themselves.
Earning money through selling ice-cream doesn't give a right to hurl abuse at others.
HA.
I'm glad that at least action was taken.
It left a warning to them.
Lets see if they will come back for revenge.
I'm curious.

hatred.

2008-05-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

IF I COULD DO ANYTHING.
I WILL MAKE SURE SHE GETS OUT OF MY LIFE.
OUT OF EVERYTHING.
HCTIB!

I have never been so angry with anyone other than her.
Family wrecker, hypocrite.
WHY CAN'T YOU GIVE US BLOODY PEACE.

RAIN RAIN COME AGAIN

2008-05-28T19:57:00.002+08:00

I just simply love the rainy weather.
MAY IS LIKE THE HOTTEST MONTH SO FAR.
Its a big hooray and relief for everyone.
Yippeee.

weather please be nice.

2008-05-23T21:11:00.003+08:00

School today is a day without lessons.
But I did enjoy myself with the bee movie & the many many burgers.
We then proceed to expo for the food,vehicle & popular exhibition.
I don't really like crowded places though.

Cherlyn and I skipped past those exhibitions and went to the addias warehouse sale instead.
In which, I bought a waterbottle and she bought 2.
Not too bad.
Just 3 bucks.

Sad I didn't meet long with my baby today.
Thanks dear for walking me to the bus stop.

Sorry if I was saying too mean stuffs about your friend(leader) to you.
But obviously he was making use of you last night.
Just because his computer spoil than he need yours to rush his work.
Rightfully, he is suppose to go to your house to use it.
Not at his convenience to meet up somewhere near his own house.
And, had other another of his friend complete his work.
On top of that you use the comp to do his work for him.
Just let me spill out this unfairness because your friend has no shame.
All because of him you wasted

15 bucks for MC
missed out lessons for the day
down with headache
your own work not done

while he selfishly went to school.
I kind of doubt whether you should even call him friend.
True friends won't give this shit to you.
Arrgghh.
Adding on the heat I'm feeling.
-.-

I can't help it,the thing about your friends.
sigh sorry.
I'm worried about you now.
Rest well baby.

:(

2008-05-22T21:53:00.001+08:00

ARRGH.

Just right went I'm in mood to blog.
I have something urgent to attend to.

:(

Global warming.
And I know who is contributing most to it.
How I wish I could just rant on about . . . . .
Nevermind.

Damn my stomach.
Nights

Press it

2008-05-22T21:39:00.003+08:00

Put The Big Red Button on your site

Hot like !@#$%^&*

Miss my time with my baby.
:(

emptyspace

2008-05-21T20:50:00.002+08:00

Its been a very long and hot afternoon.
Only when the sun sets did it feel just a little cooler.
Sigh.

Today, school was fine.
Had CAH with less than 10 person present.-.-
Followed by design which we were in the auditorium.
Ms Noraini decided to give us a break. :D
Than we had MICE.

Well, in this home. One would feel that its empty.
No one wants to come home to it.
It is you who doesn't make us feel like its home.
You claim that you are doing things to us for our own good.
Its just mere excuses to cover up.
You said you can't be all fair, no one told you to.
If you can't, don't try to push it onto others to do the same.
You can't stand people giving you attitude, can't stand people talking bad about you.
Than why are you doing the same behind people's back.
I know I am in no position to label you anything.
I just wish you just THINK more before you speak.
You don't care about others feelings.
No one talk back to you because they can't stand your stupidity.
Arrgh. You just make my blood boil.
I can't wait to get away from YOU YOU YOU!

love song so not.

2008-05-17T22:38:00.004+08:00

This week past swiftly.
Yayness
And I am waiting for my baby.

Alright, poor baby has a headache on his sake presentation.
No powerpoint can be used.
So actual visualization would mean he might have to buy the sake.
Hahaha.
Go for it baby.
I am sure you would think of something better.
It isn't worst than LMJ's one right.

I think I might be out of my mind just yesterday.
Fancy me giving permission to my boyfriend to allow him to bring a girl home.
At first I took pity for the girl but I changed my mind.
Damn once you help her she comes back to you.
I want to knock some sense into her head.
She spents money like water.
If I had that much money I would not need to work!!!!
$4000 phone bill
5 phone lines
$2000 debt.
$200 to last till wed she says she will die -.-
With a oxymoron boyfriend told her not to cancel the bank card
he will be back.

AARRRRGGGHH
*faints.

The reason I am so pissed is that over this she comes to complain to my boyfriend.
Disrupt our time.
Yadayada on the phone for almost 1/2 an hour.

You see I kept my cool baby.
:|
Lets see if she will call you tomorrow.
o.O

headache

2008-04-28T15:22:00.002+08:00

So... I finally made it for S&W class.
The training is really something very different.
O.O

I'm so feeling the HEAT!
Its time for a cold shower already.
:D

Tired

2008-04-25T21:41:00.004+08:00

I wasted half my day playing Sims2 on PSP.
Its simply too addictive.
However, I am suffering the post effect now.
Eyes are pain and I am feeling giddy already.

Well, I heard lots of bad news today.
Baby lets just pray that everything would be alright.

Alright tomorrow is finally the day I can spend more time with you.
Happy yeah! So am I. :D
I love my darling.

Ahappyme:D

2008-04-23T16:39:00.003+08:00

Its so rare that I blog often.
But my BF has a busy timetable this semester so I'm left with no choice.
Still I am contented with just the few hours that I am with you.

And,YES. . . .
Designing program would not be up till next monday.
So we are having some extra time preparing for presentation.
We had a treat this morning from Mrs Tan.
In which we headed to J8 mac for breakfast.
Time was well spent at least but the spoiler was the ~~fine~~ weather.

and time just passed so quickly......

Lunch at BF's house before he headed back to school for Japanese tutorial.
HAHA, I can't imagine him speaking Japanese.
Can't wait for the first sentence from him
:D

My poor sister just lost her wallet on the bus while sitting beside a TJC student.
Its so obvious that the person saw the wallet and took it even though he alighted before her.
It is said "Finder keeper,Loser weeper."
But knowing that the person sitting next to him lost the wallet, no initiative was taken to open that bloody mouth to tell her.
Or instead of pocketing the wallet give it back to the girl.
So much for the moral ed he learnt.
I guess he is too poor that he needs the money in it.
I just hopes he gets his bloody retribution....

I love Aung Soe Min.
I love Aung Soe Min.
I love Aung Soe Min.
I love Aung Soe Min.
I love Aung Soe Min.

-edited

:)

2008-04-18T08:01:00.002+08:00

I seriously hate this term's timetable.
Just hate walking to school under the scrotching SUN!
:(

Anyways, this term is gonna be busy.
I hope I will survive through Design Applications.
Just hope that I would have creative juices oozing out of me.
Sigh. Totally suck in designing anything.

Just 2 more days till my 1st year anniversary with him.
I highly doubt we will be going out though.
Still I am so glad to have him by my side.
Once his school reopens on Monday.
He will be busier than me.
Poor him.

AARRRGGH. I have been up since 5am.
Still waiting for time to go to school.
And, BF still in bed sleeping like a ---.
Doesn't even bother about my presence.
I bet he stayed up whole night on AO gaying with Rayzzz
;)

....
......
........
Almost forgot I HATE working with some1 at work.
Simply just a slacker and a lazy person.
A higher status but work attitude like ----
I just hope the new manager will screw you up badly for your effing attitude.
Almost everyone wants to leave or hates you.
I am so annoyed by this fag.

And this always happens, once a person is over exceedingly good in his work.
They send him off to some places that he will work like ....
Won't treasure the good ones but promote the shit ones.
This is life.
The reality.-.-

sweetest<3

2008-03-22T19:49:00.003+08:00

What more can I ask for when I have the love of my life?

Yesterday was the best.
We walked along East Coast beach, chatting our hearts out.
Enjoying the sea breeze and taking in the view.
And, everything else was just as great. :)
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:(

2008-02-29T23:19:00.003+08:00

I am blogging! Can't believe myself.Anyways I am bored to death.

The piggy has gone to bed leaving me stranded with no place to sleep.
Just a 2 weeks from final exam. I am feeling stress out.

Thankfully we manage to complete our marketing and EPL projects just on time.
Many late nights for our group members but we were cool![;

To my darl:

So sorry i have been so moody these days. Nevertheless, you still forgive me despite all the nasty things that i say. Just want to tell you I love you.

bacckk!

2007-12-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

Squashing dear! :D

Esplanade

Dear taking in the whole view.

Blissed!

RANDOM! :D

BOO! I am back. Yes, and its so great. Holidays now!! I can rest actually not really just work and my time with my baby. I just never get enough of you. Notice my pictures above? I was just browsing through the picture folder. And woah! So surprised, I didn't know that we took so many pictures at the esplanade. [:

Holidays Holidays Holidays!
Just 3 short weeks and I am already jam packed. Yes, fully booked by baby and work! Just hope this 3 weeks, time won't pass so fast.

Baby I love you!

Good times

2007-10-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

In an blink of an eye, school holidays are almost over.
I'm left with just 1 more week.
Have been working and earning money.
BUT, that doesn't mean I can spend it.
Sigh most of it goes to my school fees.
Alright cut the money talk.

1 month, what have I been doing?
I guess you people should know me by now.
Its either work or SLEEP.
Nah just kidding.
But it has been really fun going to work with dear dear.

And, I really miss going to school and meeting up with
vic, lyn and bell. We sure have lots to catch up with.

Some random pics taken this past few weeks:

endless path?

Our promise

my little cousins foot

Our dinner

Dear and me on the bus

The omelete he made for me.

Alright.See ya people. :D

-.-

2007-08-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

SICK! :(

BOOxD

2007-08-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

Dear, I am so many post ahead of you already.
You better do some catching up.

Its an unfortunate loss to my Aunt's family.
That Grandpa passed on.
Just within a day after operation.
I totally couldn't believe my ears when I heard about it.
Sigh, so have to stay strong with them.

Anyways, School was fine today.
We had Tps lesson followed by OFA.
HAHA I'm so going to pass MS access.
Than lastly BZF.
THAN THAN, Dear came to pick me from school.
We went to shop for his sandals.
Found the PERFECT one.
And it was buy 1st pair at $19.90 than the next at $10.00. hohoho.
So I ended up getting one too.

He will be ending exams on the 29th Aug.
That means he will be working with me. YAY!
Dear is it for or with??
Never mind.

SERIOUSLY!
MY DEAR IS ONE JEALOUS PIG!
BUT I STILL LOVE HIM ANYWAYS.
SOMETIMES I GET SO ANNOYED BY YOU.
BUT I END UP GIVING IN TO YOU.
IN MANY MANY WAYS,
YOU ARE LIKE ALREADY A PILLAR OF MY LIFE.
I JUST WANT TO LEAN ON YOU FOR SUPPORT
EVEN FOR NO REASON.
YOU ASK ME WHY I LOVE YOU?
I CAN'T EXPLAIN MYSELF EITHER.
I JUST KNOW I LOVE YOU.
I WAS ASKED, ARE YOU SURE YOU LOVE HIM?
I REPLIED THEM:"YES,I DO."
I KNOW WHATEVER I DO, YOU WILL BE UNHAPPY ABOUT
SOMETHING.
I FEEL SO TIRED TRYING TO ALWAYS EXPLAIN THINGS.
THAN LATER HAVING TO QUARREL ABOUT THINGS.
IT ALWAYS HAPPENS.
YOU SAID YOU WOULD TRY.
BUT STILL....
DAY BY DAY WE ARE TRYING TO LEARN AND UNDERSTAND
EACH OTHER BETTER.
THROUGH OUR QUARRELS OUR LOVE GROWS STRONGER.
I JUST WANT TO SHARE YOUR GOOD AND BAD TIMES.
I'M SORRY, IF I AM NOT THE MOST UNDERSTANDING OR
MOST LOVABLE GIRLFRIEND IN THE WORLD.
I KNOW I'M NOT A EASY PERSON TO LOVE.
I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR LOVE
WITH ME.

I LOVE YOU

LOVE,
SAMANTHA

precious.

2007-08-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

I feel so unlike myself today.
Feels like I have not wake up my from
previous night sleep.

Anyways, starting my day.
Feeling my body aching all over.
I think it was from the other day's run.
Can't even sneeze or laugh properly.
Once I do it.
It hurts like mad.

We ended school earlier than usual.
Due to a change of plan.
So happy me.
I met up with dear.
At J8 than proceed to Toa Payoh hub's popular.
To get his stationary for his exam.
Than went grocery shopping at ntuc fairprice.
So random.
But we felt like eating sushi, but it wasn't that appetizing.
So we gave it a missed,
Instead we bought Champagne Grapes.
Small in size, Sour in taste.
Dear used it to make a heart-shaped on a dish.
LOL!
And ate it all in one go.
SOUR like the LEMON?
No idea.
Shall upload that picture the next time.

I currently am starving.
I am so deprived of my dinner.
My brother ate rice for 3 persons and left not a single grain for me.
Sad.
No dinner for me.
Not sure whether should I laugh or cry.
Laugh because means I can skip dinner and cut down on carbohydrate,
Cry because no one cares whether I eat or not.
Sigh. Whatever.

I feel too lethargic to go school tomorrow.
Only for 2 lessons till 10.
And I will have all the free time in the world.
Which of course my friends know what I would do.
Oh bother!
Hee. Dear is delighted upon hearing it.
Which means more time for him.

And, I am so going to have a good night's sleep.
The weather is "sleep-perfect" for me.
Its going to pour down.
Woots.

I pray for my darling's CKT tomorrow.
Hope all will go smoothly & everything you have revised on
puts in good use. My dear dear is SO SMART k.
Think postive.
;)

Nights people.

pics

2007-08-18T18:51:00.001+08:00

Sweet Beginnings Bitter Endings

2007-08-17T20:09:00.000+08:00

I've decided to change my blogskin,
but yet to find the perfect one.

I am blogging because I am in a superb mood.
Feeling so refresh.
Why?
Because it RAINED!
And I have a wonderful time napping.
:D

So this morning I woke up at 6.15.
Instead of snoozing the alarm,
I pressed the off button instead.
Fortunately, I had darling to call me up.
If not I would really be late for lessons.
I just had to go to school today even though
it was just for like 1hr 30 mins.
OFA is so important.
So we revised on Ms Access.
Than we were dismiss, stayed on a little while with
Bell, Ayin and others.
Than went on to meet him.

Surprisingly, I didn't fall sick despite being caught in the rain.
Vic and I just love rainy days.
Perfect weather for sleeping.
*winks
Whole afternoon I was at darling's house.
That sleepyhead was so tired.
I don't know why. :|

SO many things to do, still have lots of people whom
I have yet to catch up with.
Yes, Annabelle you are on the top of the list okay.
Don't need to murder me.
If you really did there wouldn't be any ME anymore.
:(
Followed by many many others.

In times of silence and loneliness.
I reflect on the past.
Thinking of all the mischiefs that I done.
In my memories, I see him.
I still miss my grandpa.
sigh

Personal

2007-08-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

I left my blog untouched for so many weeks.
However much I want to update.
I can't because by the time I am home its already too late.

Anyways, I am updating today.
Like FINALLY because today was the last day of
my grandfather's wake.
Through this I have seen many changed.
More loving towards each other, learning to forgo their
pride of being right or wrong to actually talk to each other.
And, I know that they actually do love each other even
though they don't put it through words.

And, seriously I am glad that my dearest cousins whom
I never talk much to them. Are actually so amicable.
Maybe because my "world of cousin" used to only revolve
round VAL.

Even though I was sad that my grandpa passed on.
But I am actually relieved to see him free from physical sufferings.
So yeah I have learned to cherish my family and relatives more now.
VAL VAL. Please comfort granny more okay.
I am so worried about her.

I am really sorry to dear.
So sorry that I had terrible mood swings.
That I would suddenly flare up for no reason.
Sorry that I said that you don't understand me.
It was just out of frustration.
Please don't take it to heart alright.
I know that you have lots of family problems too.
I will face it together with you alright.
You have been through UPs and DOWNs with me.
Just want to thank you.
I know I have already said it countless of times to you.
But still I want to say it.
I LOVE YOU.
All the best to your exams.
Study hard. :D
I will be by you supporting okay.
Long winded ME.

I will upload photos soon when I have it downloaded onto
the computer.

I am glad that I have so many wonderful friends around me.
Thanks all.
I am having a really bad splitting headache.
My bed is calling out to me.
EYES too heavy.
Hee.

Nights everybody.

chocolates :D

2007-07-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

I left this blog for quite sometime.
Been busy with work, school & Aung Soe Min. ;)
So I'm back to update a little.

Finally, We are done with BZF.
Right up next we are having OFA excel.
So my Aunt went to Seoul for a week.
Say it was freedom? Nah not entirely.
My dad is stricter without her around.
But still love him anyways.
Hopefully, I get to go Seoul one day.
*I wish.

My dearest isn't feeling well.
So that explains why I am over at his house NOW!
School ended much earlier than expected
so being a ~~'NICE'~~ girlfriend I come and accompany him.
Hee. Haven't seen his sick look before.
* I am just kidding dear.
Loves

Some recent pictures that we took:
:D

at esplanade

Hahah taken at pepperlunch@suntec

Sigh.
Daniel will be leaving pepperlunch isetan for novena.
So many people leaving.
Sigh.
Sad sad sad.
They are planning to have farewell party this coming monday.
Supper @ newton,
Hopefully I am able to go.

TPS project due 31st Jul.
Almost done.
:D thanks bell,vic & lyn.

I am addicted to Chocolate milk. :D
Craving for sushi.

Loves

2007-07-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

Requested by my dear to blog.
He has been asking me.
UPDATE my blog.
I always reply "I'm too ~~lazy~~".

But that is the fact, I am so lazy to type.
Hehe.
Nothing much happened.
Just another week of school passed, and yet another week to come.
I look forward to school because I want to see
my dearest friends(vic,bell,lyn,ain etc....) :D

With project on hand to complete.
But bell has much much more to do.
Due: TPS project due by next thursday. 19/7
also on 19/7 Leadership Training Course
Busy Busy day on 19/7

To my darling:

Thanks for being by me. Sorry if I was bullying you. ;)
I promise I will try my best no to do so.
Loves. :D
(p.s. Also thank you for bringing lunch to me on sat.
So sweet of you. I really appreciate you a lot. *hugs)

To all my dear friends:

I'm sleepy! I am going to take a rest now.
Nights.

SWEET!

2007-07-08T09:58:00.001+08:00

Alright, I know i blog very inconsistantly.

Hee shall just cut short my long story.

SO, I have been working almost everyday for 2 weeks.

*I need money!

Just yesterday I went to suntec with my dearr.

And he got me a wireless network adapter.

Like yeah I don't need to use cable anymore when using my lappy.

AND AND. Finally, I ate my burger and chicken.

I'm so lazy to upload so many many photos.

Will do so once I can recall where I left my cable.

So I am looking forward to upgrading and getting my new phone soon.

As promise by my parents.

Seriously, they are such busy people.

It can even be delayed for a week.

School is starting like tomorrow

Nice!

I miss them so much.

ALRIGHTY, I will blog next time.

Till then.

ciao

booya.

2007-06-24T09:44:00.001+08:00

There is just so much to say!

Lots of things happen.

Monday.

We went to celebrate vicky's birthday.

@ MARINA SQUARE

Bell and Lyn made the effort to queue for donuts.

I'm sorry I didnt make it.

Initially, we wanted to eat at this restaurant.

BUT..

to our dismay it does not exist.

But don't worry babe.

We know you meant well.

The customer service person relay to us like

Us:'where is raffles link 2?'

Her:'Oh you guys looking for that ---- restaurant?'

Us:'uhhuh'

Her:' it does not exist at all'

ME and LYN -.-

So instead we went to yuki yaki for steamboat.

It was fun, too bad bell wasnt there to join us.

Tuesday

Work-.-

Wedneday

Darling was working.Went to surprise him by picking him up from work.

LOL. He thought I was home. Too bad you werent that surprised larhs.

Thursday

Work again

Darl was so jealous of dont know what.

Causing us to lose sleep.

Friday.

Woke up early early in the morning. Went to darl's house.

His mom treat us to breakfast. Than went marketing together.

hahaha. sleep and sleep.

All his fault.

Hahahaha, but alright larhs. I enjoy spending time with him.

Saturday.

Work in the morning till evening

we were ON the way to ECP we boarded wrong side of the train.

orchard to raffles place.

Raffles place to dhoby ghout.

dhoby ghout to raffles again

than

raffles to bedok.

LOL,I think both of us didnt take medicine that day.

went ECP than his parents came.

Treat us to steamboat.

Than we stay on at the beach till about 11 plus.

Such a coincidence, darl and me were so Thirsty.

Drop by the drink stall.

So happened that we pick the same drink.

Haha he had it in mind that he wanted to drink RB.

Than I told him I want to drink RB.

He was so shocked.
I spoke his thought of his mind out

SEE SEE Great minds think a like..

Today going to church.

heee. Waiting for aunt to fetch us.

I'm so fullly booked. But I will go for swim tomorrow.

steamboat 2 times in a week.

FAT!

(his sis says even if I grow fatter, her bro will stil love me)

HAHA right.

jelly-beans

2007-06-10T09:40:00.001+08:00

I'm finally blogging again.

Its been ages since I last touch my computer.

SO yes back to my life.

The week past so fast.

With lots of things happening.

Yep.

Whats life without friends, laughter AND YOU!

My blog might sound so happy all the time.

I just think to live life the positive way.

Why indulge in self-pity.

I am not always that kind of happy go lucky person.

BUT, with great friends around

I'm still able to change my perspective of life.

I am still thinking whether I should go out on the 18th.

Need to save money.

I'm in a dilema.

HAHAHA.

To dear:

Your mom says that I can be her daugther in law.

But seriously, your mom cooks really nice food.

NO DOUBT about it.

And yeah I think your sis love me more than you.

That time you went out the room.

She hug me and said 'You're great'

I was so shock LOL!!!!

Anyways, being with you is the happiest time of my life.
:D

I having this craving.

For SUSHI!!!

LOL

:)

2007-06-02T21:04:00.000+08:00

Loving every single moment of my life!
With you by my side.
So anyways I woke up this morning around 8.
Finally a saturday which I am not working.
I should actually sleep a little longer.
But couldn't because I was wide awake.-.-

Met my mother at toa payoh.
I treat her to 'brunch'.
Than walk around toa payoh central with her.
She gave me so many things.
My bag was full la.

After that I went to meet dear.
Yep, he was suppose to cook for me.
hehe.
BUT, by the time WE reach his house.
His mom already finish cooking.
Hahah. even so. I'm still loving my darl even if u nv cook for me.
LOL!!!
His mom and sis were teaching me their language.
So sweet la.
Slack at his house until 6, than he send me home.

He told me that his mother treat me like daughter-in-law.
SO nice la.
:P
Seriously, i like his mom's cooking.
Especially the tom-yum.
YUMMY.
hehehe

OKOK.
Test and more test coming up.
Just finish OFA!
TPS TPS AND PIE COMING UP.
:D

LOVE U MORE BY THE DAY!

joyful!

2007-05-30T21:30:00.001+08:00

I'm blogging! Yes, I am in the mood to blog BUT...

I don't know what to blog.

Anyways its a public holiday tomorrow.

AND, I will be working.

x1.5 pay.

School life is getting busier with our mega project

coming up.

It can be fun yet very stressful at the same time.

And, you know what.

After a period of time, we got to know each other better(characters).

You know what I am so glad to have bell,vic&lyn as my wonderful companions aka besties.

And to my dear.

After 1 month and 10 days of being officially together.

This period of time has been the happiest memories that I ever had.

I feel so safe, so secured with you by my side.

I never had this feeling.

But I grew to love you more each day.

Seeing you on the bus today.

Feeling angry and sad at the same time really hurts me.

I felt like being stabbed in the heart.

Thats when I feel that I really really can't do without you.

Haha, so whenever you are sad.

Think of me alright! :D I will be your joy juice.

I LOVE MY LIFE!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

I LOVE MY DARLING!

:D

2007-05-27T09:14:00.001+08:00

Yay!. I'm blogging today. :D

Been to work yesterday, quite alright.

Finish my opening like super early.

Had free time to do my things

Was waki my captain's second last day.

Too bad, had some bad happenings.

OH well.

My bro has got the job and starting work on monday.

And YES,

Somehow I hate going to work when that chan is there.

Maybe whatever he says is just kidding.

But come on who is more senior than him

not that I'm trying to backstabbed him.

Just that I hate his actions.

S.I.A

Never hate a person so much.

He is so insignificant to me.

So anyways.

So coincidental that my dearrr's sis has the same chinese name as me.

Exactly the same la.

The other day I went to his house his sis was speaking chinese to me.

LOL.

Much cuter than u dear. :P

So back to school tomorrow.

I don't dread going to school.

Maybe I know that I have super cool friends in school.

Busier by the day. :(

peace;

2007-05-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

As promised, I am back to blog.
I went to his house.
Hahaha met up with his mom and sis again.
His sister is just so adorable.
I have always wanted a little sis.
Due to the fact of having 2 brothers. -.-

Slack and watch his sis play my game.
Hahaha.
After that he send me home.

Oh well, next week will be OFA test.
Hopefully I will be able to apply what I have learn.

I'm just waiting and waiting for the right
moment.

Smile.

2007-05-25T11:23:00.000+08:00

I'm so ~~LAZY~~ to update my blog.
Oh well here goes.
I'm always updating blog in school.

I was so pissed off yesterday by my computer.
Can't go online.
But not too bad I was talking to my aunt together with my brother.
Talking about the things that happen to her in the past.
I guess everyone just has their story to tell.
Just that its different story for all.

Been meeting my dear almost everyday.
Haha just for a while. ;)
I'm satisfied already.
After school he is coming to fetch me.
So nice.
heeee.

And yeah I will be working tomorrow. 9-6
And after that may be my dad will come fetch me out to have
dinner with aunt and granny.
I guess val wouldnt be going because she will be with BF. PS

Currently I AM STARVING!
alright hopefully my internet can be used tonight.
I will be back to blog later..

lifeless

2007-05-22T12:34:00.000+08:00

I feeling so TIRED LARH!

Went to work yesterday. Not too bad. I did dish up and cashier.

Slacker's job. But something bad happen.

Anyways ong san so nice gave me her cheesecake.

(he came down and find me. So sweet larhs)

Reach home around 10 plus.

So sorry val, can't go swimming with u today.

Maybe another day.

And yes, I know thats expected of me.

So sorry about that. :

Woke up late this morning.

Feeling oh so BAD!

And moody while on the way to school

I think made him so upset like again..

Im so so so sorry.

I can't meet him much this week.

He has restrictions.

And I am so jealous of his VAIO laptop.

Mine is like so so old!! haha.

Nonsense me.

I'm now blogging in class.

Earlier on had S&W. Roller blading, quite fun but I hate the sun.

Than we bath! The best relieve to my stinkiness!

Now im in bzf surfing net.

uhuhhuh.

I don't feel like working tomorrow.

:D

2007-05-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

Lets start off with my morning.
Terrible was feeling so tired that I couldn't wake up for school.
Even so I still had to drag myself out of bed.
Haha.And yesh I have finally gotten my student ez-link card.
:D

So, I rushed home to bath and change.
than went out with him to meet his mom and younger sis.
His sis is so cute larh. And she likes me. :D
Yeah but I don't know why I felt so tired just now.
Felt like sleeping.
After that I went home and he went to school.
Thanks dear, sorry if I was kind of moody today.

And yes! I will be working tomorrow.
6-11. I am going to be dead tired.
But its so rare that so many people coming back to work.
Gonna meet up with annabelle and nicola tmr.
Ciao.

to be...

2007-05-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

Things all happen out of a sudden.
I wonder was it a moment of impulse that I actually told them.
But in return I recieved something good. I think.
Freedom!

Anyways I'm broke.
Not really that bad. But have to save up for next semester's fees.
And my dearest.
Remind me not to eat okay.
:D
I don't want to get any fatter.
Now I am so envious of those slim people. -.-

Enough of my blabbering.
Good nights.

I am going to see nicola this thursday I think provided she comes to work!
YAY!

imhappy&contented with my life!

2007-05-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for awhile.
MIA because of the stupid powerpoint.
Haha. I can't call it stupid I am so sorry.
Haha anyways this week I caught a movie.
Like finally.
Spiderman 3.

So yeah, only met up with him on monday.
Just a short while. Hopefully, tomorrow it will be good.
I'm currently broke!
Don't want to spend anymore money! Please help me.
I am so lazy to work.

Life is fine. I hope it goes well for you too.

;D

2007-05-03T18:27:00.000+08:00

I'm so touched.
This morning I woke up.
I just look at my phone's screen ' 13 messages recieved'
I was like what happen?
Nearly forgot that it was my birthday la.
Anyways yeah, this morning he met me at orchard station than send me
to bishan. But I don't know why I think i made him sad or what.
Sigh.

Anyways, I was so touch by what my friends did.
They surprised me by giving ordering pizza to school.
And also sang a birthday song.
:D
Yeah. Thanks bell,charles,ayin,shar,vic,cherlyn and ros.
They made my day. ;D

Okay I will be meeting him later.
^^
Looking forward to tomorrow's outing with nico,annabelle and him.
:D
ciao

Blissed

2007-05-01T09:43:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging today because I am so in the mood.

Just yesterday we went out together.

Its quite obvious right.

It was so HOT and sunny.

There weren't much people at first.

Than more and more came to set up their tents.

I have no idea what is so good camping at the beach.
So I was just testing out my photography skills.

Quite bad la.But at least it look alright.

After that we took bus home together.

He had to go back to school.

I guess I will be spending my whole day with family.

&

2007-04-29T09:28:00.000+08:00

Woohoo its a sunday.
And my pay was bank in the day before.
And I didn't even know. -.-
Just yesterday I work from 9-9.
Than he worries that I will overwork myself.
Don't worry yeah. :D
I will be fine.
Just fine. ;)

I'm still deciding whether to work on labour's day.
x1.5 pay
XD Since when did I start become such a workaholic?!
Anyways I am beginning to love my class.
With friends like bell,vick,cherlyn and charles around.
Never ending fun and laughter( and a little gossiping)
What more can one ask for?
Haha.
Alrights I have to go out soon.
be back soon.

Justified

2007-04-27T17:36:00.000+08:00

Another week just passed like that.
And, today its a friday!
No school tomorrow, but than again I think I have to
go back to work.
So, this week is actually quite an interesting week.
I went out with my dearie on mon to the airport.
It was raining and we were deciding on where to go.
Initially, we wanted to go pasir ris.
But when the train stopped at tenah merah interchange. We just alighted.
Peaceful and quiet. <3>

Well, its just raining every single day.
BUT!
I love rain so much.
Vicky also loves the rain. :D
In school we were wishing that it would rain heavier.
And it did. Woots I love it.

Anyways its such an irony.
His school is so near my school.
And my school is nearer to his than mine.
That means that I have to travel down and he has to travel up.
Sometimes its kind of tiring for him to send me all the way back
home.Sorry dear..
I am so in love with jesse mcartney's "Just so you know"
:D

reminse

2007-04-22T08:40:00.000+08:00

Another week has past.
And how fast time flies.
So I've been to school, met up with old and new friends.
But still I am still not use to going back to school.
I guess it should be the cause of having too long a break.
It hasn't been a ~~good~~ week for me.

1. I burnt my finger
2.I sprained my ankle
3.I was down with a high fever

Kind of miserable.
But luckily there was a person to cheer me up larhs.
:D

Guess what?!
I miss my working life.
So next week I will be back to work.
Am I weird or what.
heee.

PEEPS.

2007-04-20T11:32:00.000+08:00

hola people.
Im finally posting after a month.
Well, bored larhs. im in school's computer lab now.
And there isnt anything to do.
Just slack and enjoy air con.
-.-

Boredddd. :

LIFE

2007-03-04T00:36:00.001+08:00

Finally, I am reviving my lifeless blog.

Yep, lots of things happen in this past 2 months.

Talking about it will make this blog sound so longwinded.

LOL.

Anyways, my work life is so damn cool.

I meant the people and friends there at work.

Yep, met up with lots of people.

Now I am already working there for 2 months plus.

& I've already recieved 2 pay slips.

[:heee

(i'm so going to get nokia 6288)

So Im still the same old me anyhow.

Damn Im like waiting for my posting.

which is like in a few days time.

oh well. blogging late in the night isn't really that good.

so hopefully i'll be back more often to blog.

Take care people.

Love u guys.

perfecting the imperfections

2007-01-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

WOW!Its been ages since I last updated.
Please pardon me yeah.
My desktop broke down on me.
So I don't think I can blog as often as I used to.
But worry not people.
A new computer is coming my way.
YAY!
1st hand computer.
Which is like FINALLY?!

Not having to use the internet can really be unbearable.
So this past week I manage to learn SELF-CONTROL!
WEE~
Not exactly though.
I have already been working for the past 1 week or so.
Which I meet new people, experiencing something new.
But fortunately there are familar faces around me too.
I'm currently working with nicola and annabelle.
So I will normally work from 12-11.
And I have recieved messages complaing about hearing so much lesser from me.
Well what to do?
Yeah, I am not working this whole week.
Due to?!
haha ask me personally if you want to know.
My godbrother 'keetee' has also joined me working there.
LOL!
But he is doing kitchen work while I am doing floor and cashier.
Haha must really thank ANNABELLE for teaching me cashier.
And the people there are 'amiacable.'.
Okay I will spare you guys the details.

Sometimes I also don't know what to blog.
Well, I surely do miss school life.
My teachers, friends&school.
Aww..
My classs is organising a BBQ for class gathering.
I don't know whether I should go?
Annabelle wouldn't be going and as for nicola...
I guess she is but she isn't sure herself.

Okay I will stop here already.
<3

LOL!

2006-12-26T13:29:00.000+08:00

I wonder whats wrong with my computer at home.
I couldn't access to gmail or blogger.
Oh well..
Christmas...
Pretty boring larhs.
LOL!
Im now blogging using my cousin's computer.
Stayed over at my cousin's place.
So tired.
boo hoo..
[:
haha
i will try to blog someother time.
:D
ciao ppl.

I<3U

2006-12-10T09:45:00.000+08:00

I've just realise I didn't update my blog for quite a long time.
So I am just rushing this post as I have to prepare myself to go
out later. I am heading to town with my beloved couz,valery.
Yeah, with my brother ANDY.

Anyways my life is always so mundane.All with a repeated routine.
I guess I have got to change it.
Surprisingly, I manage to get a job in a restuarant in chinatown.
Thanks to VALERY and Jh of course.

Sometimes it ain't nice comparing yourself to others.
Have you ever thought about what have they been through.
Or what brought about this drastic change in their character.
Comparing means you boost about your own merits.
And putting the other person down.
It isn't nice right.
Why not you compare yourself with a person who is
much better than yourself.
That way you can improve yourself better.
I detest people who does that.
And putting another person down
Ever thought of the unnecessary hurt that you would
inflict onto them.
Its really detestable and it irks me as much as it disturbs you.
I shan't continue if not I would be bursting with anger.
Amongst us there will always be a black sheep.
Oh well.
I'M FINISH.

gOOG DAY PEOPLE.
eNJOY YOURSELF THE FULLEST.
i BETTER GET GOING OR i WILL BE LATE.
[:
CIAO PEOPLE.

<3

2006-12-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging for the past few days.
So sorry to those avid readers of mine.
I didn't have the mood to blog.
Nothing much happened in these few days.
Except that I fell sick.
Which is so unexpected. -.-

And I really dread using this computer from day 1.
That stupid computer guy.
Con my aunt into buying this second hand computer.
Which instead with that amount plus just a little bit more
could have bought a much better computer.
And therefore I can't upload my pictures.
Arrghh. darn the computer.

Tomorrow will be a day out with my mom.
Haven't seen her for quite awhile.
;)
So meeting up with her for lunch.
And at the same time drop by my grandparents place
to see my beloved little cousin.
Hee.. I will try to find ways to upload pictures onto the comp bahs.
HEE..
I AM LONGING FOR A DIGITAL CAMERA.
;D

Okay thats all for now.
Going to bed soon.
A sick person can never sit up for long.
Sigh.. rotting away.
Bahaha.

effed

2006-11-26T16:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes just the minute things irritates me.
Please for goodness sake.
Follow yourself and stick to originality.
It really irks me.
WHATEVERISM!
I effed up.
U fugly thing.

[[:

2006-11-25T21:17:00.000+08:00

Its a rather boring day.
And finally my puppy HAPPY is somewhat toilet train.
Almost wanted to give up on HAPPY.
But things seem absolutely positive now.
I guess thats a good sign.
And I was searching highs and lows for HAPPY on thursday
I guess I felt guilty for scolding him the the night before.
I actually thought that he ran away from home. :/
I almost teared but fortunately HE was found.
Aww.. Hug and cuddle him like MAD!
So than after that day he seem to improve in everything.
Improved as in being more toilet train & not waking up in the wee hours
to interupt my beauty sleep. ;D

Anyways I just feel so weird.
I don't belong to any schools now.
After 10 years of schooling.
Now after o'levels I am so in for already.
I am worrying about the outcome.
My dad said no point worrying about it.
At most just retake lo!
:S

My brother ANDY is such an imbecile.
Why do I say that?!
ROFL...
He irritated me like so MANY TIMES!
One day I will get back at him.
Andy:'HOW? HOW?HOW?how in the world are you going to get back at me?'
Samantha:'BAHAHA , just wait and see. Who in the world would be so dumb to actually tell you that. GULLIBLE ONE!'
Andy:' I scared scared wor!'
Samantha:'-.- lameness, DUH!'
Andy:'SHUT UP'
Samantha:'Thats what you always say when I out talk you.'
and than he walked off.. LOL!

YAWNS

2006-11-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

HEY READERS.
Its a rather boring day today.
BUT!
Did I ever mention that I LOVE RAINY DAYS!
Why do I love rainy days.
Its because I love the cold.
Hee, perfect weather to sleep.
Yesh I know I am so lazy arhs.
LOL!

Sigh,what to say when I'm having a boring day.
[:

Alrights toodles people.
;D

I miss u!

2006-11-23T19:57:00.000+08:00

Heys people!
I am back to blog.
Woots holidays are always SWEET! You people agree?!
Anyways this afternoon my aunt,andy&I went to mervin's school
to accompany him to collect his results.
Recollected famillar scenes similar to mine 4 years ago.
Now I really realise how fast time flies.
So I guess their teacher wanted to keep them in suspense
therefore she was talking so much on stage.
Anyways my brothers came to scare us on purpose saying
he only manage to score 100. My aunt,dad& my heart nearly dropped.
Haha, than when I took his paper with my trembling hands.
I stared at the paper with his aggregate of 201.
Lucky him..
He scored 2As and 2Bs which is a improvement since his prelim.
The unbelievable thing is that his chinese scored an A!
-.-
Amazing, in the beginning his chinese was like a fail throughout his 5 years.
And he managed to achieve a A within a year.
I think he did remarkably well.
Congrats to you yeah!

So I was suppose to go swimming today!?
But because of THAT GUY going so I didn't want to go.
Sorry larh.
Hee.
Sorry yeah!
Isn't it weird that HE just stay there at look at us swim.
Hee. Well I just find it so.
LOL.
Shan't mention your name in case that someone comes to
visit my blog. ;)

So I am trying to enjoy myself to the fullest before I start to work.
Oh yes, I am effing happy today.
I got a new converse white leather bag.
Looks nice to me.
Hee, thanks aunt&dad.
Anyways, I am seriously bored.
No one is online to chat with me. :\
Sigh.
toodles!

YAY!

2006-11-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

Alrights my nightmare is all over.
Now I am finally free.
Went for a swim today.
Sigh need to slim down larhs.
I AM FAT.
SIGH!
Don't know whether I am going to work leh. Sigh.
Anyways HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE!

my apologies!

2006-11-19T12:11:00.000+08:00

I am really sorry to those readers who requested me to update my blog. I am sure my siblings would have known what I have been up to. Of course I am always up to mischieve. LOL! Now I know that looking after a puppy can be really exhausting. Fortunately, I have my brothers to share this burden with me. I guess one day all my clothings are going to be filled with holes because of all this chewing and biting. :D

I am left with one more paper and than yes I am going to work. Be it for cash or for experience, its beats staying at home and idling my time away. On tuesday, I will be going down to raffles place to check out the job. If its worth the try, I guess we will do it. Hopefully I will be able to get the job. Sounds like a good offer to me.

My holiday mood is like already switch on. Whahaha. There will be a birthday party tonight for my sister. Yeah, her eleventh birthday celebration. And lucky for my younger siblings they are having their holidays now. ARGGH!

Alrights I have to run an errand now. So stay tune to my life people! [:
I know I am lame but who cares.
HOLIDAYS HERE I COME!
Toodles!

Swimming

2006-11-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

Woke up around 7 plus this morning.
Was waiting for valery's call to assure me that she has left the house.
So there I was playing with my puppy.

Meet valery at my bus stop around 9 plus.
Shared my breakfast with her than went swimming.
Oh my now than I know that the walk is so LONG.
Yes! It took us like 20 minutes plus to reach the pool.
LOL.
So I'm glad that the pool doesn't have much people there.
So we could swim freely.
Hee.
We talk a lot girls stuff.
What do you expect when 2 girls come together.
Lots of yadayadayada.
;)

We swam continously for 1/2 an hour.
Sigh valery we have to motivate each other yeah.
Only you and I know.
Sigh..
Anyways at least I achieve a sense of satisfaction.
Yep.

So after the swim, our legs were like wobbly.
LOL!
And we still have to walk back to my house.
So anyways on the way we bought drink.
At least it cooled us down.

I shall spare the details.
But one thing is that my puppy is just so adorable.
;)

YAY tomorrow is fnn paper.
Starts at 9.
sian diao.
Supposingly to start at 8 de.
But than because georgebush is in singapore than
they scared that the flow of traffic will be affected thats why delay by an hour.
Oh well..
I gotta go.
toddles people.

yayness

2006-11-15T09:58:00.000+08:00

I will be going to school later to take geog paper1.
And I really wonder why has the exam has to be so late?
It starts at 4.30pm.
For me its the perfect time to take my nap.
bahaha.
Later meeting annabelle at 3.30.

So here I am chatting my friends online.
hmm..
Idling my time away, not wanting to practise map reading.
LOL!
Hopefully I will make it in map reading.
sigh..
Practise map reading with ms lim the last time.
All was fine..
I wonder will I screw it up later? -.-???
heh. I know I am very pessimistic.
what to do?thats me.

Sigh I will be back around 6 plus I think.
dread that geog paper.
rahs. -.-
I'll write a better post later.
;)

HAPPY!

2006-11-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

Last night, a joy came into my life.
Yes a cute little puppy.
It was given to us by my aunt's friend.
Hopefully I will be able to load some pictures of it soon.
I am so exhausted.
3 more papers to go.
OKAY!
Oh ya,the puppy name is HAPPY.

I am living my life to the fullest.
Thanks to the many people who have came into my life.
You know, I know. ;)
<3

COLOUR ME!

2006-11-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone

Lord help!

2006-11-10T21:07:00.000+08:00

Alright mathematics is officially over.
Suppose to feel light hearted de.
But I simply can't help it when I hear this disheartening news
that my ah gong is in hospistal. In critical condition.
Oh my !can't help but teared.
He is already 90 plus. Sigh I pray that he will be all fine and well.
Sigh. I feel like crying le.
No mood to blog.
Just when people think that they are experiencing the worst time of their lives ever. Other people are in a worst situation.
Sigh.
I will pray for my gong gong. :'(

geog p2 gone!

2006-11-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

yeah!
Geography is over.
Not too hard.
Yeah countdown:12 more days!
Anyways maths paper is tmr!
Thanks guys for wishing me luck!
Love and treasure everyone of you out there!
<3

chemistry is so over!

2006-11-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

YESH!
I didn't expect science to be easier this year.
Its like WOAH!
Hee hopefully can pass and score for science!

Alrights 13 more days to freedom!
I am kind of slacking right now.
Even though its english tomorrow I am still
scared that I wouldn't make it.
Yes seriously! Afraid of failing, yes I am negative what to do.
[:

Anyways after science today we had plenty of time.
So annabelle,sharity,aaron,zhi xiang went to causeway point
for 'breakfast cum lunch'. Was accompanied by siu long too.
He was waiting for max to come to cwp.
Than after than we walked around cwp till 11 plus.
Yes spend an awfully long time there.
Aaron and zhi xiang were hilarious!
Doing all the dumb and stupid things.
See girls can be better at games that guys!
:]
Planning to catch a movie with them after o's!
Oh yesh, passed by the jewellery shop
OMG the engagement rings are so tempting.
Hee, I am dreaming as usual..
:P

Wish me luck for english tomorrow!
I want at least a B3 larhs.
**hopefully**

Woots!

2006-11-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

Alright I am back from a very heavy dinner.
It was of course HEAVENLY.
Practically indulge myself in food high in calorie!!!
!&@^*&#^

ohhh yesh!
Today I woke up so early, could actually sleep in more de.
But couldn't, so spend some time watching teevee.
Than went out to cut my brother's hair.
Did I ever mention that he has this thing about his HAIR.
Practically obsessed about those hair on his head.
Spend hours before going out just to style it.
Ohhh welll MY BROTHER that is.
Yeah than do maths till 4.30.
Got changed and went to pick my aunt from work.
The purpose of the dinner is for my beloved granny.
Her belated b'dae dinner.
Yeah after that we went to serangoon to pick granny up.
Went to this restuarant at safra telok something.
Anyways it was worth it.

OKOK!
blog some other time.
<3

dead

2006-11-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

I have been blogging quite consistantly nowadays.
Oh well!
I skipped maths mock today.
Was too tired to actually wake up and go to school.
So instead I stayed home to mug.
Did some prelim papers from other schools.
Arrgh so bored can.-.-

nothing in this world will stop us tonight...im gonna make u feel alright
:D

Literature is over!YAY!

2006-11-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

Just one word to describe my literature exam:'Gone!'
So there I woke up early this morning.
Couldn't sleep the whole night.
Than revised through literature notes hoping
to get some hope from there. Well thats me.

While waiting for bus to take to woodlands.
I saw this group of students just released from school.
I was thinking.
Why has the literature paper be in the afternoon!!!
At that moment I felt demoralised.
And darn that idoit aaron wee.
Asked whether he revised than come and tell me
all those shite nonsense.'SIA' la he.
Than I just replied:'arrongance is the key to failure'
Than he was telling you ASSUME I didn't revise huh.
YES ASS U but not me.
Just before the exam and he wants to get on my nerves.
Jackass.

On the bus, I was so absorb in the story of krishnan and his wife.
It was than I realised that my literature book isn't that bad afterall.
But all is too late already.
The exam has long passed.
So I did a set text on the english teacher and unseen prose.
It wasn't easy neither was it very difficult.
Sigh hopefully I will be able to pass.
Well! Aaron was like complaining I didn't have enough time to finish.
Well thats for your arrogance larh!
Hee.. Pardon me for my meaniness today.

I skipped lunch because I wouldn't want to fall asleep in the
exam hall. Yes, I regretted because my tummy was rumbling
during the whole time in the hall. But I was too nervous to
complete my essay to actually fall asleep.Oh well I guess I can say
good bye to my literature books. This is the kind of feeling when
one exam is completed. Having the thought that you would
never have to see the book ever again satisfies me.
So I have to tolerate another 2 weeks and all is over.

Okay I am way past time for using computer.
Have to go.
Bye people!

the aftermath

2006-11-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

Yes! I am so over with my biology paper.
Its was much easier than expected.
Easy because those questions did not
include the heart, co-ordinate response in humans.
I can say I'll never want to touch that book ever again.

So there I was happy my temporary relieve.
This F~~****** *i***~~ came and dampen my spirits.
I shall not stoop down and be bothered about it.
Its a disgrace to me. Tsskk.

I really had enough!
Enough of people doing things.
Seriously if doing it would add a burden onto you.
Why bother doing it? Perhaps you did it on purpose
so that other people would have things to say about
you.How attention seeking. 0.O
If you aren't happy tell the person straight please.
Ranting to me won't help you.

Heh I am being kind of irritating making the paragraph above
so light huh. KILL ME!
Oh well 3 more weeks till o'level ends.

LOL

2006-10-29T17:03:00.000+08:00

Kind of pissed with my blogger thingy.

yesh read my previous post?

Some how its touched me larh.

So here I am being very naughty and lazy not revising

my work.

Hee..

Still deciding whether to go for afternoon lessons tomorrow.

ALL THE BEST PEOPLE FOR EXAMS!

I am edited to goong.

Someone cure my addiction please.

touching

2006-10-29T11:42:00.000+08:00

Its a long and lengthy story, but its worth reading it.
Try to feel it's essences for words could not justify the story.
enjoy :)
I met her on the net, how?

I can't remember. but it seems to me that it is this 'little theory' which I declared in the cyberspace that caught her attention.

If I have a million dollars, I would buy a house. do I have a million? No.
that's why I don't have a house.

If I have wings, I can fly. do I have wings? No. so I can never fly.

If all the waters are drawn out of Pacific Ocean, but it still can't put off the flame of love between us. Can all the waters of Pacific Ocean be drawn off? No. That's why I don't love you.

That's me, a typical science student. First you come up with an assumption, then you fit a suitable conclusion.

If the proposed assumption doesn't stand at all, then everything is just bullshit. I guess this is what they call 'unromantic'.

But she is an exception. she actually mailed me and said that I am an interesting' person.

'Interesting'? What a word to use on me, it's like using 'faithful' on Mr. Clinton. I thought this girl must be a low-IQ organism, or suffering from serious brain damage.

Anyway, her nick doesn't seems so bad -FLYNDANCE- that's quite a unique one.

But I was warning myself: hello, this is the virtual world of Internet. who knows what might be lurking behind a beautiful nick.

Talking from experience, most of the time it will be a 'dinosaur' in
disguise. The only differences will be whether it is a carnivore or a
herbivore but, I know she is way different from a 'dinosaur', she is special ....

So I guess its time for the appearance of FlyNDance.

Ever since she mailed to tell me that I am 'interesting', I was always wishing to meet her in AJCRR. Too bad, lady luck was just not on my side. So I can only reply her letter to tell her that I will start to train myself to become an 'interesting' person, just to show that she is far-sighted.

She replied my reply, I replied her reply to my reply, she again replied my reply to her reply blah blah blah... Oh no, I just started a chain-reaction.
Actually what interested me the most is this paragraph she wrote in one of the mails....

'I dance swiftly, amidst the crowd.
Your glance on me be it surprise, be it admiration, it ain't going to stop my rhythm.
Because it's not your glance that made me dance, it's my heart of youth.'
I simply cannot relate this girl to any of the 'dinosaurs'. But if she really is a dinosaur, I am willing to let her have her fill.

Tye, my best pal unfortunately, noticed my little affair with FlyNDance, and has been perpetually warning me about this.

"HELLO! You don't even know what she looks like, why take the risk?? Maybe she' is a guy!"

I can't blame Tye for his ignorance. Ever since he was dumped by Sally in Secondary 4, he has become a renowned 'playboy'.

As the saying goes: "Once bitten, Twice shy".

In this case, after Tye was bitten, he has mastered the art of skinning snakes alive, and make them into soup. But he got all the factors to be a playboy, I always think he is the 19 year-old version of Brad Pitt.

Tall, handsome and got this tongue that causes diabetes in every women he targets. I don't think he can even remember how many girlfriends he has had.

I went online that night, log onto channel AJCRR and yes!

She is there.

Before I can get over the surprise and the daze, she sent me a message.

"Hey Slorr, so late liao haven't sleep ah?"

Now what? Now what? Ok ok, I had to calm down first. I swallowed hard on my saliva, took a few deep breath.

Now where is that Tye when I needed him most at such crucial moment, somebody to tell me what to say to her. How am I going to attract her with my pathetic humor, which has gone stale.

"Slorr, me in a foul mood today. Can't sleep, you leh?"

MOTHER'S (direct translation to Chinese), what Slorr Slorr...

Now when I read it twice in a row, I am beginning to feel disgusted in that nick Tye gave me. Tye said that: "Who knows, it might attract some innocent gals in talking to you."

"I am not feeling very good too. So let's sad together."

Finally squeezed a sentence out, but I can already feel droplets of sweat forming on my forehead. Actually I am not in a bad mood, I just wanna follow up her topic that's all.

And if she ask for the reason for my feeling down, I can say:

"Since you are feeling down, how can I ever be happy?"

I know it sounds mushy, but Tye said: "MUSHINESS IS THE FUNDAMENTAL TO ALL COURTSHIP."

And gals are a very weird species, they trust their ears far more than their eyes. So instead of doing 10 things to impress her, why not just say a sentence to move her.

"Ok, but you haven't greet me leh."

DAMNIT!.. how can I forget simple manners to gals. To think they call me MR COURTEOUS' in school.

If this thing ever leaks out in school, I would lose all my female fans.

"Nice to meet you, miss long-hair."

"I've been wishing that she's keeping long hair.

Tye said that:

"FlyNDance... hmm.. she would either be long-haired or a desperado, 'COs when gals dance, only 2 parts of them may fly: hair and skirt. So if she doesn?ft has long hair, that means her skirt flies when she dances, AH-HA!!.. this has a certain sexual hint in it...haha.."

"Eh? How you know I got long hair?"

BINGO! Heaven is on my side this time. It goes to prove that she is not a DESPERADO. Yes!

"Not only that, I also know you seldom wear skirt."

I increased the stake, if I am correct this time, peace on earth forever.

"Err... I guess you are right lor. But how you know one?"

"Just guess."

"Ok lor. Hey Slorr, tell you what, me tired liao, you coming online
tomorrow morning?"

"Ya, why??"

"Please please please say the you coming too, if not I am going to kill myself for letting you go tonight. I'll see ya tomorrow at 10 am then. Good night."

"Er.. should be today at 10 am.. ok.. good night too."

I just blurted out a last sentence ....Offline.

Suddenly I was so impressed by my performance just now.

But is the season of spring really arriving for me?? I wish...............

Slorr, what a coincidence ahh"

"Yeh, I am not late."

"Ya lor, so qiao."

Girls are weird, I thought we already had an arrangement, why do I have to pretend that its not.

They must have watched too many movies, and like to think that guys they met due to the thing called 'fate' is the best thing that can happen to their love life.

"Slorr, you talking nonsense lah."

"NONSENSE? Ok, let me tell you what is nonsense. Summer's beach, the guy must be good at running, with broad shoulders, dark complexion with a tint of redness, sparkling eyes and loud laughter.

Then he will call out loud the name of the girl, running towards her, carry her and spin 3 rounds anticlockwisely."

"Slorr, you siao liaoz ahh?"

"I siao? Ok, let's change a location then. Deep in the mountains, the guy must have long hair, gotta have the look of an artist, carries a sketching stand, a few pieces of drawings, and you can see birds stop over at his side admiring his work. And there will be a girl whose the model, most probably naked."

"Slorr, but these all very romantic mah."
"ROMANTIC? Hello miss, romance only survive in novels and movies.

In real life, the guy on the beach may step onto broken glass or the girl may be too heavy which tore his arm muscles.

Birds may just clear their waste on top of the guy in the mountains, or he might get a thrashing from the girl because he comments on the excess fats around the waist and hips."

"Slorr, you hate romance?"

"I hate romance? Nope, I am just using my knowledge of statistics to get a deduction, that guys must be TALL to be romantic, not HANDSOME!!! Some love novels even portrayed the guy as normal looking, but no-one dares to challenge the height of him! I object, because I am not tall."

"?Slorr.... objection overruled..."

I think I am really outstandingly bo liao, talking to her about these until noon.

"Slorr, are you hungry?"

"Ya, you leh?"

"Yes, guess its time for lunch...Slorr.."

"Then do you think we should?"

"Slorr, I am just asking. I don't intend to have lunch with you."

"Ok, good. I am not romantic, neither are you."

I had lunch with Tye, we talk about the conversation with FlyNDance this morning.

"You moron. Told her you are not romantic, you siao ah? You have disgraced me man. How can you make such a big mistake?"

"....I...I..."

Tye grabbed a chicken wing with chopstick, and I can see the trembling of the hand and the wing.

"There are 3 'don'ts' in chasing a girl...
One, don't forget to be romantic;

Two, don't be too honest;

Three, don't be too stingy on the sugar in our speech.

In mandarin, we say 'nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai', you should know this."

"This I know, but it has been a controversial topic over centuries. Women aren't really that, cheap"

"So why would they only falls for 'bad guys' like me?"

"That's because 'bad guys' are usually romantic. Those 'nice guys' are usually, dumdums. So she would rather choose a romantic 'bad guy' rather than any of those dumdums. In math we call this 2C1, understand? dumdum."

Oh, Tye is talking about math! Now I understand. No wonder I have always been left on the shelf.

"In another words, gals wouldn't mind if you are not tall... if you are not handsome... they can bear with your inconsiderate acts... can forget your stupidity... but they can never forgive if you are not romantic..."

"Come on, this is so exaggerating."

"Hey, most women have a 'knot' for romance, just like most men have a 'knot for virginity. To women they just can't understand how precious the thin layer of membrane is to men. Same thing, men can't imagine how important women treats romance."

"This is bullshit! How come I've never heard of that."

"The key word is 'knot', if you can untie it, fine. But how many had actually succeeded in that. Practically none."

"Ok, fine. Now I've done it. So what should I do to remedy the situation?"

"Face it. You are hopeless already."

I promise you I'll have a drink with you when you and her are over."

You SON OF A BXXCH.

Midnight. I am trying to concentrate on my physics notes...

F=ma, v=u+at...

It's really a wonder that nature can be explained by just a few formulas and equations, and this we call science.

Then why is astrology and palmistry being labeled as superstitions?
Science should only be one of the ways to explain truth, what can't be explained by science, it doesn't necessary mean that it's unreal....

Close to 1 am. Since I can't get anything into my head, I shall try my luck on net then, maybe she is there.

"Slorr, you here."

"Finally, good night to you "

'FINALLY'? Strange word to use it here. What is she doing here at this hour? Must be feeling down again.

"Yes, it is fate that brought me to you at this moment."

I am trying very hard to convince her that I am a bit romantic.

"Slorr, nothing to do with fate. I waited for you for one hour liaoz..."

"Sure or not? For what?"

"Talk to you mah or else I can't sleep."

"You sick is it? Go see doctor lah "

"Slorr, let's continue our topic.

What do you think of relationships that began from the Internet?"

Oh my god, how should I answer her now?

"It's... it's very... romantic..."

Indeed I am not a good liar, even my words are shaking now.

"Slorr, you bluffing. You not romantic one mah."
GAME OVER. I am finished! No choice but to drink with Tye.

"Slorr, you lagging? Or just daoing me?"

"No, I am wondering why is the sky so chio tonight?"

"No no no. Don't try to shift the topic, Slorr."

Sigh. I give up. I asked for it myself.

"Actually I think relationships started from cyberspace is considered as ROMANTIC, cos romance gives people an impression of unreal, and cyberspace is virtual."

"Slorr, that's interesting."

"Surfers keep a safe distance from each other and usually 3 types of people are produced in this way.

The first type....

The first type are those who present themselves on net with their secondary personality'. Usually all of us consist of multiple personalities and in everyday life, what we present to the world is the 'primary personality', with the secondary one being suppressed, or maybe we don't even realised this other trait of us deep inside. So Internet is the place where this side of us is revealed, both intentionally or without conscious knowledge."

"Is it true? What about 2nd type?"

"The 2nd type are those who will transform themselves into the kind of man/woman he/she would want to be. There's bound to be 1 or 2 characteristics that you particularly admire, too bad, sometimes these characteristics are just couldn't be found in you. Cyberspace is the perfect location for this transformation to occur."

Slorr, you blowing cow, is it? Type 3 leh?"

"I am not blowing cow, I read it from an article of TIMES magazine! Type 3 will be those who transform themselves into characters which are impossible for them to become in real life.

For example, if you are a girl, you may act as a man on net. You may even become BATMAN or SUPERMAN if you want."

"Hmmh.. That's pretty amazing."

"The first type is the 'faithful' type, 'cos its his own personality that is being presented on net.
The 2nd type is the 'foolish' type, 'cos he knows only how to admire others always forgets his own strong points.

The 3rd type is the 'pathetic' type, 'cos he is wishing 4 some impossible."

"Slorr, then you belong to what type? Me leh?"

"I don't wish to believe you are type 3, 'cos I am not.

I crossed the possibility of type 1 'cos its too common, because I think you are special. Being able to attract you, I think I am at least a bit special. So we belong to type 2."

"Type 2, then who you wish to become? Slorr.."

I certainly would like to become a person like Tye, humorous, romantic and eloquent, 'cos these are what I am lacking of.

"Slorr, what about me?"

"you? I don't know. you want to FLY and DANCE, probably that means you wish to fully enjoy your youth while you can. But if this is something you wish yet you can't achieve, then there's 2 possibilities:

1, you are aging, 2, you are leaving the world."

I think I said something wrong, cos she didn't sent me anymore message after this. I began to blame myself for being so perverted, why talk about these things?

I should have discussed with her whether ZOE or FANN, who should be the queen of Caldecott Hill. Damn that TIMES magazine! Poisons my mind. Maybe sheÃ·Ã• lagging. So I waited... and waited. Girl, its just a few minutes, but it felt like several hours. I want to apologize, but do not know how to start, until she sent me this message:

"Slorr... let's meet..."

Without hesitation, I used the hand that I had used it over 18 years to wipe my ass, typed 'O-K'.

I am supposed to meet FlyNDance tonight , 8pm, at the entrance of McDonalds the one beside YMCA. That's the best time and place to meet a girl you have never met before, according to Tye, 'cos they would have taken their dinner by that time which means we can simply go inside the Mac and have some fries and coke.

She will be wearing a whole set of coffee theme attire and I will be wearing my usual blues, this is our way of identification.
She told me she is not those 'cute gals' I may think she is, I said never mind, I am not
Brad-pitt either. Then she told me she has long ago given up on this hope already.

"Slorr, you are early."

While I was idling, a girl tapped my shoulders from my back.

Although I was already mentally prepared for anything that's going to appear in front of me, I was still astonished by this girl who stood in front of me now.

If not for the coffee theme and that 'Slorr', I would think she is only asking for directions. She is one of those 'chio bu' that can only be found on Orchard Road, which I usually see while crossing the road. Maybe I suffered from a serious concussion due to the heavy blow, my mind was extraordinarily calm.

"Had your dinner right? I think we shall go inside the Mac first."

"You are pretty smart huh? A good way to save money indeed."

AIYA! She knows me so well, I can only give her an innocent smile back.

Since she's so pretty, I ordered 2 LARGE cokes, and even ordered TWO packets of fries.

"This time you treat, next time I'll let you treat."

I am not falling for that, miss. But I am glad she mentioned 'next time'.

"Slorr, are you disappointed when you saw me just now?"

DISSAPPOINTED? Are you drunk?

"Why do you think I will be disappointed then?"

"Cos I told you I am not cute mah, so you must be quite dissappointed when you saw me"

She is making zero-sense, but I know she is just trying to hint that she's actually cute.

"Then why did you have to lie that you are not cute?"

"Slorr. I said I am not cute. I didn't say I am not pretty."

#$%$##%^*&%$@!!!

"But you are also quite decent looking what it's not like what you described to me too."

'DECENT'? A very vague word. To many gals, decent=boring. One good thing is that she didn't lie to me about the fact that she is keeping long hair. She also has a fair complexion which reminds me of HL milk I take almost everyday.

It is now only that I found out she is from ACJC, but had spent her first 3 mths in AJ.

Sitting in front of each other, we talk about many things. From her obsession with coffee to my hobby of watching movies. BTW, she had completely shook off my misconception of 'if she is pretty, she is brainless
She appears to be an attractive girl, both physically and character wise, talking, smiling to me, occasionally being a little sarcastic and nasty.

It's like a dream.

We left the Mac at around 10 pm. Since it's still early, I decided to send her home and fortunately, it's just Ang Mo Kio, two MRT stops from mine.

I would have second thoughts if she's staying at Pasir Ris.

"Slorr, congratulations! You are officially permitted to date me from now on."

She said this before the lift door closed.

Back at home, I realized that I hadn't asked for her real name, maybe it's the influence of that stupid Tye.

Tye told me:

Never ask a pretty girl her name the first time you meet her, cos there are already too many wolves out there dying to know, so she will be more interested in you if you act bochap.
Then why didn't she ask for mine? Don't tell me there's a female version of Tye telling her not to?

It's again 1 am. Time to meet her in ajcrr.

"Hi! Slorr you tired?"

Of course I am tired after all the surprises she presented me, I would go straight for my bed if not for her. But why is she here also? Isn't she tired too?

Long time no see how are you?"

"Slorr you siao ah? 2 hours only leh... miss me?"
"A)Yes B)Of Course C)Abuden D)Dying to see you E)All of above. Answer is E.

Seems like she is really tired, even the smiling face are yawning to me right now.

"You wanna go for a movie tomorrow?"

Maybe I should ask her now, while she is half asleep, hoping that she will blur-blurly click 'OK'.

"Should be no problem. What show?."

HOOOOORAY!! I am cheering for her fatigue.

"We decide what show tomorrow. Anyway what's important is watch with who.
Not the show."

Tye's favourite line, I am just borrowing it.

"You should go sleep now lah."

"Wait one little while. You haven't tell me you tired or not?"

"Ok lah, A bit. You leh?"

"I am exhausted but have to say good night to you first. Slorr, if not I can't sleep."

"Me too."

I can't believe I am doing this SILLY business right now.

"Ok I tell you what I count 1,2,3. Then we log off together."

"Ok good night Slorr."

"Same to you"

"1..."

"2..."

"3..."

I never talk whenever I am inside a cinema, and now is the best time for my mouth to rest, so I spent the following 3 hours to admire this much-talked-about movie of the century, Titanic.

I am not a romantic person, so it's perfectly understandable if I can't really appreciate this motion picture fully, except for all those stunning special effects. But something struck me when Jack said to Rose before he sank into the deep.....

"Rose, listen to me... listen.... winning that ticket was the best thing that had happened to me... it brought me to you....and I am thankful, Rose.. .I am thankful...."

Suddenly I felt much fortunate than Jack, because I don't have to risk my life to board Titanic, all I have to do is to switch on my PC every night.

But he's one lucky guy too, because he knows how to draw, and just look at how slowly he was drawing Rose, that made me blame myself for the lack of this talent. But to her, this movie wasn't just about drawings or special effects. I noticed that packet of tissue paper she was holding in her hand. and just when Rose said: "I promise... I will never let go, Jack... i'll never let go.."

She opened up her sling bag and here comes the reserve handkerchief. Damn that Celine Dion, why on earth did she had to sing that "MY HEART WILL GO ON at the end of the show, for all the female species inside the theater, its like "MY TEARS WILL ALSO GO ON".

"Ok, movie ended. Let's go."

I stood up, speak to her gently, worried that every single word I breathe out might just crush onto her, and kill her. She continued to sit on the position, looked at me with her beautiful eyes that just came back from a swim.

After a while, she said "Slorr, movie ended, but life goes on. Am I right?"

I nodded my head. But I just wished somebody might give me some clue of what she was saying. Finally we managed to leave Orchard Cineplex, since its still early, we decided to take a walk down the street.

Along the way, she seems unusually quiet. So I guess Tye was right about the 'TITANIC FLU', he said that gals often got so mentally distressed after watching this show, and it's the best time to launch an emotional attack on her, that's why Tye had watch Titanic for over 5 times roughly.

Her eyes were focused on the path or the crowds but I know her mind was still left on Titanic, sinking with her, waiting for somebody to pull her up.

I just kept my mouth shut. I know I am not a good swimmer. We walked to Plaza Singapura. Suddenly she stopped in front of a Christian Dior counter.

"Slorr, have you read a novel called 'Fragrance'?"

"Err..nope. Why do you ask?"

"Look at this 'DOLCE VITA' from Christian Dior. It's what the guy bought for her girlfriend in the story on her birthday. And he told her 'DOLCE VITA is French, meaning 'SWEET TIMES'"

She pointed to a bottle of perfume at the counter, but I was more interested at the price tag around the neck of the bottle.

"Oh... is it?"

"Slorr, then do you consider today as 'sweet times'?"

"At first I do, but some points are deducted since you started crying."

"That means it can only be considered a little bit sweet, I'll buy the small bottle then."

I insisted to pay for the perfume as her birthday present from me since I know her birthday is coming soon, this kind of saves me a lot of trouble of finding a present for her. Luckily it's just perfume, or I would have to pawn my underwear if that guy in the story gives her girlfriend diamond or gold bar.

"Are you hungry? Wanna sit down and have something?"

"I don't have appetite, what about you?"

"You eat, I eat..."

Her eyes are red again. I am such a fool. Finally got away from the noisy crowd at the MRT station, walking on one of the streets of AMK Ave 6.
Contrastingly, it's so quiet now that I even can hear the rhythm of her heartbeat."

"Slorr, do you know what's the correct way of applying perfume?"

I shook my head. In fact, I had never used a perfume or cologne before, medicated oil maybe.

"First you apply some behind your ears, then your neck and wrists. After that spray some onto the air, then walk through it."

"Sure or not?"

"In that case this little bottle won't even be able to last you for 3 days"

"Slorr, shall we try?"

"We? You go ahead. I am a MAN."

She opened up that DOLCE VITA, behind her ears, neck then the wrist she applied some and she really did spray some onto the air!!

WABIANGZ!! Expensive leh! Finally she stretched out her hands, facing up like enjoying the raindrops falling on her face.

"Hahaha...."

"Slorr, this is so fun! Now its your turn."

She went through the same procedures with me and I can feel the coldness of her fingers. Maybe it's the perfume, I guess.

"Slorr, get ready, I am going to spray!!"

I imitated her. Face up and walked through my first perfume rain.

"Slorr let's have another round!!"

" WHAT!! Serious?"

My money isn't easy to come by leh!! Before I can collect the broken pieces of my heart, she had walked through her second round. She was even more excited this time, hoping around, likes her nickname. A flying and dancing butterfly. Late night of AMK, the street smells unusually nicer right now. Until we finished the whole of that DOLCE VITA.

"DOLCE VITA is exhausted."

"I guess this sweet time shall end now too. Slorr, I'll go up now. Tonight
1 am, I won't be online, and you are not to do so too."

"Huh? But why?"

"Go online at 12pm tomorrow. You will know.... Remember, only 12pm..."

She turned and walked into the lift. At the same time, I saw an obvious pink patch behind her neck, which is visible only now because she tied her hair.

I looked up towards her window on the 4th floor from below, but it never light up.

I switched off the light in my room. Engulfed in the absolute darkness. I wished to have the same kind of feeling as her right now. I realized in complete darkness, the easiest mood one gets... is loneliness. She must be lonely right now, half asleep.

I almost can see a beautiful butterfly, turning to ashes amidst the sea of flame. And that patch behind her neck.. from pink it became red. Then burgundy. Slowly, it swallowed me was it the cause of that can of beer just now?

Suddenly I felt cold and shaky. And that coolness seemed to have come straight from my heart, the rate of my heartbeat was an exponential function of time as it got closer to 1 am.

USE A DIFFERENT NICK!!

Checked..

She isn't there; my heart was beating fast. But the temperature remained below healthy level....

-=~@~=-
Finally it?fs 12 p.m., excited as I was, logged on the net, yet there was still no sign of FlyNDance. But there's a mail from her:

Dear Slorr,
At first I thought it will be easier for me to settle down in the darkness.. recollecting memories we have shared... but all I felt was loneliness..... Can you feel it too?...

I still can't change the habit of logging on at 1am... so I used a different nick to sneak into AJCRR... you don't blame me right?...:P... you weren?ft there... should I feel glad for your obedience?.... you said both of us belonged to TYPE 2... the foolish type...maybe you are right!... 'COs I really do admire those who dares to fight for their desires... I stroke my hair gently when you said that I am leaving the world... and a few strands of hair fell..... No!... doctor told me its not a terminal disease... and doctor aren't supposed to lie!!?... I still can live like a normal person...
BUT CAN I ?

FlyNDance... is it really something I wont be able to do?... After the first meeting with you at Mac... I started to realize that you are not only a virtual being living in the cyberspace... in reality you are strong, gentle and sensitive.... I can feel the defense Wall of my heart is slowly breaking apart.... I am defeated... I tied my hair today.. 'cos my fren told me that I look more attractive this way...

I want you to remember my face as it is today... 'cos after today... everything may change.... But why didn't you ask for my real name? ..that?fs why I never asked for urs...

I am a girl mah..:P... do you realized how I wish to have something more than a nick to take along with me? ...Slorr... thank you for the DOLCE VITA. Finally got a taste of what sweet times are like... but I am really sorry.

??.I just couldn?ft bear to say goodbye.....

Since it started from a mail.... it should end with a mail too.... Its been 3 months and 2 days since the very first mail... not a very long time but it isn't short either.... our story began from me... and I will end it.

Maybe its what you said... 'Internet is fast and convenient, but it isn't perfect'.... I can send you my thoughts right away... but not my tears...
It?fs about 5.30am now.... time to go.... by the time you receive this mail...
I would be trying to settle down somewhere else.... I don't know....
Good Bye

With lotsa love,
FlyNDance

After reading her mail, I felt as if I had just experienced a roller-coaster ride which almost derailed. She had shown me the other side of her, soft and sensitive.

For a couple of months, I was trying to hypnotizes myself, to suppress my feelings whenever I started to think about her again. Perpetually I was telling myself, she is just one virtual character that fly and dance in the net, but never in the real world. I became a fugitive, escaping from my PC, escaping from the Internet and anything that has to do with coffee. Hide myself behind the piles of lecture notes, behind the crowd of people, trying to get rid of this thought of missing something in life.

But I failed. I found out that its not that I don't miss her, its just that I had forgotten the passion that always comes along when you are having something hanging on your mind all the time. Its like I cannot breathe, it?fs just that I had forgotten the fact that I have been breathing in and out for the past 19 years.

I can hold my breath for a while, but not forever.

I have to find her!

"Err... I am looking for ... er..FlyNDance...."

"HUH??..."

'Huh', this is the exact word I was expecting from her.

She seems to be FlyNDance's elder sister, 20++, looked quite a beauty too even without any makeup. But of course, still can't be compared with her. I explained to her my purpose for knocking on the door and told her that I am no stalker whom she might think I am.

Surprisingly when I told her my disgusting nick, Slorr, she appeared to be rather excited and quickly she scribbled something on a small piece of paper and handed it to me.

"You should go and see her. SGH, Room 3-425."

-=~@~=-
This is the first time I've ever stepped into the Singapore General Hospital. It's a dust-free space, everything looked so clean, tidy and arranged.

But I don't like the feeling it gave me... I entered room 3-425, she was there, in a deep sleep. I stood by her, watching.

Her hair was still as long as before, laying across the soft, white pillow.

Her face looked roundish now, I know it's the side-effect of the medicine. And the pinkish-red patch that was on her neck, had spread to her face appearing in a shape of a butterfly.

Nevertheless, she was still the most beautiful butterfly I've ever seen.

Her eyelashes twitched slightly, she must be dreaming, what's that in her dream?

McDonald's fries and coke? Sinking Titanic? Or the rain at AMK Ave 6? The room was getting darker as the clock approaches 6pm.
I wanted to switch on the light. I hate to see her lying lonely under the shadow of a patient's room.

But I am worried that her dreams might be disturbed by the sudden light rays. While I was in a dilemma, her eyes opened slowly. Her eyes were wide on me, then she turned away suddenly.

I can only see her back at this moment. She lost weight. After a long time, she turned to face me again, rubbed her eyes and smiled....

"Slorr, you are here!"

"Yes, nice weather today, isn't it?"

"Ya lor, sky also very chio today? Right? Heehee.."

SKY VERY CHIO...

I can still remember this was the conversation we had in one of our AJCRR meetings."

But she didn't realize that it's raining today.

"Slorr, why are you standing there. Sit down."

Thanks for reminding me. I just found out that my legs were numbed due to the several hours of standing.

"Slorr, you lost weight."

ME? I thought I should be the one who's telling this to her!?

"Slorr, you hungry? Had your lunch? Food here isn't so good. That's why patients like me always slim down a bit. Apart from that, it's quite ok. But sometimes I feel really bored without a PC here to talk to you.."

"Slorr, how's your mid-year? Sure did very well right?"

WAIT A MINUTE! You are the one who's lying on bed right now not me! Yet, I had nothing to ask her actually.

Because I was there to see her, not to find out the answers to those questions. Maybe now its the time for me to utter some touching lines like whatÃ·Ã• in the case of a movie.

But I am not a Romantic person... moreover...

Movies are fiction.
Life isn't.

-=~@~=-
I just wished that she could leave this place as soon as possible back to AMK Ave 6, back to ACJC, back to where she belonged. And I promised she wonÃ·Ã– be alone anymore, because I will always be there.

After a while, her mum was here to see her. Around the age of 50, slightly overweight. Other than the cheerful smile, she didn't really remind me of FlyNDance.

"Err, I think i've gotta go now. Bye bye auntie."

"You....You..."

She sat up straight in a sudden, like if she'd experienced a tremendous shock.

"I'll be here again tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow... until you leave this place..."

Before I went back home, I went to Plaza Singapura again to buy that Christian Dior Dolce Vita... and I've got the biggest bottle this time, that she can even swim in it.

I try not to close my eyes that night, I want to go to her as soon as the first sun ray shoots into my room....

"Slorr.. you are here.. i've been waiting for you for a long time..."

"Had a good night's rest?..."

"Oh... I didn't allow myself to fall into a deep sleep because I know you won't wake me up when your here."

"Then you should take a rest now."

"Err, since you are here already, I don't think I can..."

I gave her the Dolce Vita, and we'd agreed that we would dance in the rain in front of SGH main entrance the day she's discharged.

I dare not look straight at her, because there's a butterfly on her face.
It was only last night before I leave SGH that I found out she's suffering from an illness called ERYSIPELAS. What the clergymen would term the BUTTERFLY DISEASE...

But what I like is the coffee butterfly that is able to dance around freely not that pinkish-red butterfly that settled on her pale complexion. Moreover, whatÃ·Ã• a butterfly if it can't fly?

"Slorr, why are you looking at me and not talking?"

I don't know, because I noticed that she's getting weaker physically. I had a bad feeling about this.

"Slorr, I am thirsty, can you get me a drink?"

I am not leaving her at this moment. I can still remember a movie about this guy who went all the way to get red bean soup for his girlfriend who's on sickbed and to find her lying silently on the white bedsheet when he came back... never to wake up again...

"Are you trying to get rid of me, like what's in that movie?"

"Slorr, movie is movie, life is life..."

MOVIE? LIFE?....

"But I thought you just had a drink? Anyway, so what can I get for you?"

"Ultimate Ice Blended!!"

This is a hospital leh!! Did she think I can find Coffee Bean everywhere on this island? Like McDonalds, what's more coffee wasn't suitable for her at that time.

"Err... coffee isn't good for health, order something else, ok?

"So you know coffee isn't good for the body too. Then you should cut down on your intake also, ok?"

I saw her smile appearing and there's a shine in her eyes. I realized that sheÃ·Ã• just trying to tell me not to drink too much coffee in the future.

My heart seemed to have suffered from a heavy blow.

This is not good. A taste of pH7 has started to fill my nose. If this is not going to stop, tears might be the next thing that appears in front of her.

I recalled the chapter on reservoir and dam in physics textbook. Quickly applied the knowledge on myself. Even if it's just a few droplets.

"Ok, I promise, I'll try my best."

"And try to sleep earlier in the future and don't skip breakfast..."

"It's important to you and don't be too obsessed with blue. It makes you look troubled and....."

This didn't sound good. It's like giving the final instructions before she. I can't bear to let her continue.

"Ok ok, I'll go get you a drink right away."

"Slorr, is the machine far away? If it is, then its ok, I don't want it anymore."

From my mental calculation, men would take 67 steps while women would take 85 steps to reach the vending machine right at that corner. Plus the time taken to purchase, average would take a total of 1.8 to 2.1 minutes. Not very far.

"Quite near."

"Slorr, come back quick. I don't want to be alone for too long... I hate that feeling."

I didn't answer her. I just increased my pace....

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"Eh... its late already... go to sleep..", my mum was nagging at me again.

"Ok ok.... 10 more minutes..."

Until today, FlyNDance had left for more than 2 mths.

I still logged on at 1 am every night, but onto channel DOLCE-VITA which was created by myself, with Slorr and FlyNDance being the only 2 nicks inside, for 10 minutes.

Although she won't be able to fly and dance in real life anymore, but I still wish that she could continue to do so in the virtual world.

Even Tye has given up on me...

"She's gone, why are you still doing this? For what?!!"

Yet, even if that's the case, I can't allow her soul to be left at the corner of loneliness. Because she said she hated the feeling of being alone.

I still remember there was a heavy downpour on that day. When I reached SGH they told me... A coffee butterfly flew away from her room at around 1 am last night....

After that... I can't remember...

I just knew that I stood at the bus-stop for a whole day and I was all wet because of the rain. Even my face.

I've been trying hard not to think of her over these 2 months. I've been hoping that her face won't appear in my mind every moment that I breathe, but it's like hoping that the sky isn't blue; the grass isn't green; the stars do not twinkle at night...

Basically, I was hoping for something impossible to happen. I can't believe that I am of Type 2, even in real life.

Did I cry?.. NO WAY!..

I said it before, I am not a romantic person, and this may be due to the deficiency in the hormones that constitutes emotions. Whenever I had the feeling of pH7, I'll browse through those 'FWDS:jokes...' Attention will then be shifted by those dim-wit, low-class jokes...

So now everything is back to the way it was before I met her 9 mths ago.

Tye is still flirting around, and I am still the old decent=dull me. But IÃ·Ã˜e stopped taking coffee and beer.

"Xing ah, is this for you?"

My mum handed me a letter she picked up in the mailbox this morning.

I was surprised when I saw 'To:slorr...' written on the envelope.

That's for me I guess. I opened it up, there was a piece of writing inside, and another coffee envelope.

Slorr,
I am FlyNDance's sister, I think this is how you are addressing her. I am sorry that I do not know your real name, although we'd met before.

When I was packing her stuffs a few days ago, I found this letter with your name and address already written on it.

So I posted it to you, because I believe this is what my sister intended to do.

Best wishes,
Xiao Wen

The letter was sent 3 days ago, and there was another:

'To:slorr...'

Followed by my home address written on the coffee envelope. But this handwriting was a lot nicer and the words seemed to be moving swiftly...like in a joyful dance.

I have no time to figure out how she has gotten my home address. Did I give her in one of my mails?

I tried to control my trembling hands, slowly, I opened up the envelope. I found a photo, and a half of a movie ticket inside.

Apart from these, there was a blue letter... with the familiar DOLCE VITA smell on it. The photo showed her, standing on a piece of grassland, wearing the same coffee theme attire on our first meeting at McDonalds.

Something was written at the back of it....

Dear slorr,
Coffee represents Pisces.. that's me. Blue represents Sagitarius.. that's you. A blue letter inside a coffeee envelope.... know what I mean?

Seeing me, do you feel like drinking coffee now? Stop drooling! :P

FlyNDance

I smiled.... bitterly. The contents of the blue letter is simple:

If I have one more day to live, I want to be your girlfriend. Do I have one more day? No. Too bad. I can't be your girlfriend... not in this life.
If I have wings, I want to fly down from the paradise just to see you. Do I have wings? No. Sadly. I can never see you again.

If all the water are drawn out of the bath-tub, but it still can't put off the flame of love btw us. Can all the water in a bath-tub be drawn off? Can.

So yes. I LOVE YOU.

FlyNDance

My chest was torn apart... tears broke through the dam I constructed a long time go in a jiffy.

As proud, as emotionless as I was, I can't pull back the salty wetness overwhelming my eyes anymore.

She has changed my 'little theory' and gotten back what I'd owed her... tears for 2 months....

Titanic has won 11 awards in the Oscar, including best picture.

Yet, Rose wasn't the best actress under that category. So if it's sad in a movie, it may not be so fortunate too in real life. And in reality, should Jack hold on to Rose and 'Never let go?'
Maybe he shouldn't be worried about this. 'Cos that beautiful coffee butterfly will continue to fly and dance in his heart.. forever...'

~THE END~

tebusques the real meaning.

2006-10-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

You are a walking contradiction.
Every words that you say, doesn't
match up with your actions.
Come clean larh.
I'm getting quite annoyed by ur actions.
you know who u are.

Emotional

2006-10-27T15:46:00.000+08:00

MY dearest bro. [:

My best friends.

Yes this is how I have been feeling for this past few weeks.
I think I am suffering from depression.
Sigh am I paranoid?
I think I am..
Insecurity and uncertainty.
Lord, please take away my agony.
I hope O'level pass by quicker so I will be
free from stress.

I wonder in this world who can I trust?

2006-10-27T10:33:00.001+08:00

You Are Strawberry Pocky

Your attitude: fresh and sweet
Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper
You always see both sides to everything

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

2006-10-26T18:37:00.001+08:00

You Are a Visual Learner

You tend to remember what you see, and you have a good eye for aesthetics.

You excel at art, design, and computer programming.

You would be an excellent film director - or the next Bill Gates!

What's Your Learning Style?

2006-10-26T12:20:00.001+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

tebusques emancipation

2006-10-26T09:47:00.000+08:00

In less than a week, my o'level examinations will be starting.
In secondary, four years of education THIS is what I'll be sitting for.
I asked myself, am I prepared?
I asked myself, What have I been doing?
I asked myself, would I regret my actions?
I have already wasted enough of my time doing unnecessary stuffs.
One word summarise it all:'DEAD'.

Please pardon me! As the exams draw near, I am feeling more stress.
Yes, people says just take it like some normal exam. How could I
possibly do that? I have to overcome this hurdle and move on to
working life.If I were to fail what happen to me. Some things
are easier said than done. If they aren't in my shoes, what do they understand.
STRESS!

Hahah I think I am getting too panicky over exams.
Can't blame me.
My friend Xia ning is getting the stress symtoms worst than me.
She developed rashes on her body because of stress.
And she claims that she is not at all.
Our body do react differently to stress huh.
Next wednesday my biology written paper.
DIE!
alrights better go and mug now.
OH yes.
My parents went for a holiday so YAY!
free... Not quite though....

dread those virus

2006-10-20T13:59:00.000+08:00

BY CLARA;

I am back to blog!Yesh...
I am down with those stupid flu virus.
Yes fever, flu and BAD coughing.
Sigh I hate being sick la
Oh ya I am having this sudden urge to change my blogskin.
But have yet to find any suitable one.

Yesterday I had my o'level science practical.
Which was an absolutely NONO kind of paper.
I looked at the biology questions, I was dumbfounded.
Yes WHY of all things ask about plants.
Sigh I guess I flunk the paper.
As for chem straight forward larh.
Also kind of idiot proof.
But I guess I wasn't concentrating.
sigh.
One word:'DISASTER'

Siu long is being a very nice godbrother.
[:
Met up with yiwen, annabelle and him
to go school.
Ask him come earlier to accompany me
end up annabelle come than he come.
=.=
haha. I didn't PS you arrrr! hee.
He is my bestfriend for almost a decade le.
HAHAH...

My blogging format is so unlike me.
Sigh I think I shall go back and get more rest.
I am going to be a piggy for this few days.
:P

melancholic

2006-10-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

MY DARLINGS! 4E1 rocks!

Heys people!

I will be quite busy with studies.

So won't be able to update much.

But, I will update as and when I can.

The 'after graduation mood' is really

very depressing.

Today I went to school.

The other lower secondary schoolmates

weren't there. Because of marking day.

heh.

so we got the whole school to ourselves.

I reach school around 9.15am.

hah fifteen minutes late for mdm azizah's class.

All because of AARON WEE WEE's fault.

nah just kidding.

Met up with siu long, tina and weewee.

hehe.

Crapped around as usual.

Guess what tomorrow I really don't feel like going for maths.

My flu is getting on my nerves oh well.

I have to buck up for maths.

Science practical will be this thursday.

Wish me luck guys.

1 nov will be biology,2 nov will be literature.

STRESSED!

I would spent a lifetime with you!

I love my TEACHERS AND FRIENDS

2006-10-13T19:32:00.000+08:00

Today was graduation day for our cohord.
It truely was a success.
I cried when mdm azizah gave her speech.
I mean isn't it touching when your
form teacher tell everybody when she
was on maternity leave she actually missed us.
She said she has missed out a lot of things when she
was away for that 3 months.
Also telling us whenever she is sick,
she looks forward coming to teach us.
Why? Because the 37 unique individual is special to her.
Awww. But I miss mdm sanismah a lot!
She didn't come to school today.
But we messaged her and she told us SHE MISS US A LOT!
And I miss her too.
:D

This is how fast time files. 4 years passed in a flash.
It is truely fate that we are able to be in school and have
each other as best friends.
Shall get those photos from my friends later than upload.
I LOVE 4E1 forever.
I thought I would never been so emotional about graduation.
But having the thought that I will be leaving my familar school
and teachers I am just sadden at the thought of it.
Sigh my prelim is a flopped. Shall mug till I die.
I can't believe myself that I am actually
looking forward to go to school for subject consultations.
Alrights very emotional now.
sigh....

DEPRESS

2006-10-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

OMG! MY POST WASN'T POSTED!

ALL MY THOUGHT AND FEELINGS JUST GONE WITHIN A FLASH.
ARGH I AM ANGRY NOW!

my eyecandy

2006-10-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

Having a special someone in your life is really heartwarming.

A person to shower love upon you is really sweet.

I want my eyecandy! Faster appear...

Perhaps after many things that has happen in my life.

I have gotten over a mean jerk.

Yeah, a pain in the neck.

These days I am feeling so helpless.

This friday will be my graduation day and mdm azizah will be back.

I am going to miss mdm sanismah real lot.

She is forever my favourite teacher.

Oh wells fnn is so disheartening. Those teachers are so bias.

Moderating our class giving such low marks.

And Ewww all their classes has better marks than us.

Thats very unfair.

Think about it also angry.

ARRGGH

Tomorrow will be my brother's mini party.

hahs this few days he has been getting on my nerves.

YAY valery will be coming tomorrow.

YING YING AND GINA TOO! YIPEE.

To val: Don't be stress over your exams yeah?

Take good care of yourself.

To ying: Haha must beat andy in his exams.

To gina: all the best to your psle!

To andy: study hard.

I love everybody who is special to me.

Take my hand and never let go.

love is ever so demanding!

2006-10-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

Heys people!
I am back to blog due to popular demand.
LOL.
I am just kidding.
I am blogging because people around me keep
asking me to update.
I am kind of lazy and tired to update daily though.

Lets talk about my school.
Just this monday, I skipped school.
Didn't expect things to happen though.
My mathematics teacher was so pissed off with our class.
And also my class broke record for the
HIGHEST NUMBER OF ABSENTEES that day.
Imagine a class of 37 students. 16 are absent.
How will the class look like? Spaces everywhere.
Anyways my class people got chided by my maths teacher.
And he sent them sitting on the floor.
So I wonder is it a good thing that I didn't turn up for sch.
hahas. Nevermind I am a little hysterical because of STRESS.

Imagine transformation is like so easy.
Than because of my teacher standing
infront of melooking at me do work.
He adds onto my load. I nearly died. -.-
I'm somehow addicted to the song gei wo ni de ai.
Its so nice.

Just have to bear with 1 week more to graduation.
Than mug like siao already.
Hopefully I am still keeping my sanity with me.

How I wish someone could just bring me away to somewhere peaceful just the two of us.

neccessity is a need for new inventions.

2006-09-29T19:38:00.001+08:00

Back after a day at school.
Just realised,I have been blogging too much of school.
However I am sure you people know how stress I am.
So anyways, today during geog we went through prelims
questions. Than spend some time talking about O'level
stuffs.
'Imagine some teachers say aim for Poly.
Yet their actions speaks otherwise.
Giving us courses for ITE! :(
And telling us, you people won't make it to poly.
Only end up in ITE.'
They are so contradicting, I'm so confused.
Oh well, I will make it.

Let me see do I have any symtoms for ;

Headaches- YES! ALWAYS
Poor concentration- OMG YES AGAIN!
irritability- YES,YES AND YES
Poor appetite-HMMMMM...
Breathlessness-SOMETIMES
Depression-I DON'T THINK SO
Loss of self confidence-MAYBE A LITTLE
Self multilation-hmmm. no

Notice that my entire post is on school. I am getting a little eccentric here. My friends are cool though.We relaxed a little during Fnn. Crap with my fav teacher.I hope things goes well next week. 13 oct will be graduation day and after that will be study break. Anyways I wish to all my loved ones;Andy,Ying,Gina,Valery,Mervin,Kevin and others whom I did not mention.Yeah all the best to your examinations.I sure you people will do it. *cheers.

I've given up hope on a hopeless deciever.

hectic schedule & lifestyle.

2006-09-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

Imagine having to spend our entire day in school.
How much worse can that be.
We will be having mock test everyday.
OMG its very tiring.
After O's I am going to play like CRAZY.
I need a life please.
Just thinking about school makes me sick.

Those who are worrying about me out there.
Don't worry.. I guess you haven't seen the shagged me.
Thats how I am now. JUST TOLERATE a few more months! ARGGH

I'm Tired.

2006-09-27T22:18:00.001+08:00

MY MOOD: TIRED!

MY FAV MUSIC:STAYS ARE BLIND!

MY DAY: HECTIC..

This is how tired I am. I don;t even know what I am doing or saying. All because of last night, couldn't sleep well. Sigh. Today is the day which I feel so restless. We had our surprised maths mock, typical of my teacher.Than stayed back in school all thanks to him till 4.30. I went to BK with tina for late lunch cum dinner. I need my sleep. Oh yes need to get vitamin supplements.Arrgghh... I am really very tired. HELP ME!.

Anyways I just realised I need my eyecandy.

Someone to support me when I am feeling down,

be the first to know I am happy. And love me.

I am feeling so depressed today, all thanks to the lack of sleep.